Thoughts have no control they can take you anywhere and to anyone.

 

Thoughts have no control

 they can take you anywhere and to anyone. Drowned in her escape world she talks to her a better and perfect version of herself.  Sharing every whisper, comment, argument, and insecurity she escapes from her world. She was not always like that something happened to change her world upside down. She was a young beautiful and independent one. Perhaps this trial made her caged and grumpy She was deprived of something which was god_ gifted and lies outside of man’s power. ‘Nature decides whom to bless and whom to deprive. These are only trials to find the best. These do not mark superiority over the rest and will be questionable on a great day.  The deprived one can do only to be submissive and content. The god has surely planned something better and worthy', she murmured. 

She was the deprived one and she could not buy this gift. She was powerless and timid. She kept on asking for this in her prayers and was patiently waiting for a miracle. She tried everything and every effort. She was not responsible for this. how could she be? She bore every condemnation and evil and these kept on rewinding in her mind.  

She often thinks about Zakariya AS when his lord blessed him with a son while he was in extreme old age and his wife was barren… 

she has a firm belief in miracles and was hoping for one in her life. She wished her husband and relatives could understand and pray patiently. But this was not happening. She was held responsible for not conceiving a child and forced to cage in her boundary…

she always thinks and often escapes her present and dwells in thoughts where she talks to herself each and every time.