Have you ever felt the pain of being so close, yet so far?

Have you ever felt the pain of being so close, yet so far?
Unbearable at times, yet living upon the edge. Trying to make up for the feelings murdered or just getting along the pain leading to no where but ecstasy. 
Yes, I have been through those millions of emotions in a single touch of yours. Holding your hand and knowing that it is the last resort and yet I wont be be able to kill myself and would have to live with the pain of giving up.