I used to reject myself...

I used to reject myself... 

I used to compare myself...

I used to blame myself...

I used to hate myself...

I used to be angry at myself...

I used to think I was a loser...

I used to treat me like trash...

I used to change myself for others...

I used to make everyone my owner... 

I used to think i wasn't big enough for my dreams...

But now after having all this experience and dealing with fear, I've realized that not everything is permanent and not everyone is perfect. You have to work hard for everything. There are no limits for dreams. You don't need to be big for dreams; they'll make you bigger. They'll help you to explore, experience and discover. Love yourself, make yourself vibrant and feel sure of yourself and your abilities. Go chase your dreams! Enjoy and love every moment because you don't know your expiry date. Don't change yourself for others. You're beautiful just the way you are. You deserve everything. Sooner or later, you'll shine like a star and rise like the sun. 

Just like everyone else I love staring at the moon

Just like everyone else I love staring at the moon... it's so satisfying & comforting but some days ago a status of my friend "Be like the star that maintains its identity even in the presence of full moon" drew my attention towards that star accompanying the moon... And I could not stop thinking about it. Moon is beautiful & cherishable but have you ever thought about that star...the star which maintains it's identity & individuality even in the presence of full bright moon....The star which is always along with moon in each up & down...the star which accompanies it throughout it's journey...why don't we admire it enough...

same goes for some people in our lives...some beautiful souls which support us throughout our path without making themselves noticeable...Without getting any admiration, any praise...those people who always held our back no matter what circumstances we are facing...then why we forget our true supporters who offered their shoulders in our hard time...why we don't cherish their efforts, acknowledge their sacrifices...

But don't you think these stars should be admired no matter if they are up there in the sky or down here in our lives??don't they deserve our love??why we make moon our center of focus whenever we stare at the sky...

Wanna go far away where all you can see is you

Wanna go far away where all you can see is you,

Where all you can feel is only peace,

Where all you can hear is only silence,

Where no one is around you,

Just you and only you,

Where you can speak your heart out,

Where you can Speak out loud.

کیوں مایوس ہو جاتے ہو لوگوں کی باتوں سے؟

کیوں مایوس ہو جاتے ہو لوگوں کی باتوں سے؟

کیا تم نہیں جانتے تمہارے بکھرے وجود کو سمیٹنے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔

کیوں اندھیرے سے گھبرانے لگتے ہو؟

کیا تم نہیں جانتے اس اندھیرے کے بعد سویرا لانے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔

تم نے اتنی جلدی کیوں ہار مان لی؟

کیا تم نہیں جانتے بے بسی کے بعد مدد کرنے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔

ذراسی آزمائش سے کیوں اس قدر کمزور پڑ گئے؟ 

کیا تم نہیں جانتے آزمائش میں ڈال کر پھر اس سے نکالنے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔

کیوں نصیب کا لکھا سمجھ کر ہار مان لی تم نے؟

کیا تم نہیں جانتے دعا سے نصیب کے لکھے ہوئے کو بھی بدلنے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔

کیوں ادھورے خوابوں کو ناممکن سمجھ بیٹھے تم؟

کیا تم نہیں جانتے معجزوں پہ قدرت رکھنے والا تمہارا اللّٰہ تمہارے ساتھ ہے۔🌸♥️

جو لوگ کسی کے ساتھ برا کر کے سمجھتے ہیں کہ انہوں نے کسی کو دھوکہ دے کر بہت بڑا جیت کا میڈل اپنے نام کر لیا ہے

 یہ جو لوگ کسی کے ساتھ برا کر کے سمجھتے ہیں کہ انہوں نے کسی کو دھوکہ دے کر بہت بڑا جیت کا میڈل اپنے نام کر لیا ہے تو بھول ہیں ایسے لوگوں کی تباہی ہے جو ان کو نظر نہیں آتی۔۔۔کیا ایسا ممکن ہے؟ کسی کے ساتھ کچھ غلط کر کے اُس کو نیچا دیکھا کر زندگی کے سفر میں اُس سے جیت جاٶ گے۔۔۔۔۔ایسا ہرگز نہیں ہوگا وقتی جیت کب داٸمی ہار میں بدل جاۓ پتا نہیں چلے گا اور اللہ نہیں بھولتا کچھ بھی انسان غلط کر کے بھول جاتے ہیں لیکن اللہ یاد رکھتا ہے ایک ایک پل کا حساب رکھتا ہے وہ دیکھتا ہے مظلوم کو اُس کے درد کو لیکن مہلت دیتا ہے کہ ہو سکتا ہے غلط کرنے والا راہ است پر آجاۓ لیکن جنہوں نے خود اپنی جانوں پر ظلم کرنا ہو اُن کو ہدایت کی راہ بھی نہیں دیتا اللہ۔۔۔۔انجام ان کی آنکھوں کے سامنے ہوتا ہے لیکن اللہ ان کی آنکھوں پر پردہ ڈال دیتا ہے ان کو کچھ دیکھاٸ ہی نہیں دیتا اور پھر کچھ وقت کے بعد جو چال لوگ دوسروں کو نقصان پہنچانے کے لیے چلتے ہیں ویسی ہی چال اللہ ان کے خلاف چلتا ہے بے شک میرا رب بڑا انصاف کرنے والا ہے۔

میں تمہارے بارے میں کچھ نہیں جانتا

 میں تمہارے بارے میں کچھ نہیں جانتا

تم نے کتنی بار محبت کی

یہ بات میں تم سے نہیں پوچھ سکا

ویسے بھی یہ سوال دوستی کے کسی مرحلے کے لیے مناسب ہو سکتا ہے

تم اتوار کا دن کیسے گزارتی ہو___؟؟ 

بھیگی ہوئی شام تمہیں کیسی لگتی ہے___؟؟ 

اور روشن دن___؟؟ 

تمہاری بالکنی میں پرندوں کے لیے پانی کی کٹوری رکھی ہے یا نہیں___؟؟ 

تمہاری انگلیاں طبلے کی تھاپ کے ساتھ حرکت کرتی ہیں یا گٹار کی سٹرنگز کے ساتھ___؟؟

بلیک کامیڈی تمہیں کیسی لگتی ہے___؟؟

تھیٹر آف ایبسرڈ کے بارے تمہارا کیا خیال ہے___؟؟

۱۹۸۴ تم نے پورا کر لیا تھا یا بیچ میں چھوڑ دیا تھا ؟؟

کیا اشفاق احمد تمہیں بھی سوڈو فلاسفر لگتا ہے__؟؟ 

یہ اور ایسے کئی سوال 

اب تک سوال ہی ہیں

چھ سالوں میں ہم دو بار ملے ہیں

اور دو بار کے اس ملنے میں شاید چار باتیں کی ہوں

میری آنکھوں نے تمہیں کبھی تلاش نہیں کیا

میں نے تمہارا فون نمبر مانگنے کے بارے کبھی نہیں سوچا

لیکن تم مجھے کہیں بھی نظر آئیں 

تو میں تم سے تیسری بار ضرور ملوں گا اور پانچویں بات بھی کروں گا

چھٹی ساتویں اور شاید آٹھویں بھی

میرا ارادہ پختہ ہے

میں ان سوالوں کا جواب جاننا چاہتا ہوں

لیکن کیا مجھے تم سے یہ باتیں پوچھنی چاہئیں ___؟؟

یا انہیں یونہی چھوڑ دینا چاہئیے

چوتھی ملاقات کے لیے

خیر یہ ابھی طے نہیں

لیکن ایسا ممکن تو ہے

سنو

___!! 

انجان ہوتے ہوئے بھی چاہنا خوبصورت تعلق ہوتا ہے۔۔

خدا نے ہمیں ستارے بنایا

 خدا نے ہمیں ستارے بنایا 

وہ ستارے جن کے ٹوٹنے پہ لوگ دعائیں مانگا کرتے ہیں 

!لوگو

دعائیں مانگو

اپنے بچھڑے یاروں کے ملنے کی

اپنے ویران دلوں کی آبادیوں کی

روشنی کی

 زندگی کی

رہائیوں کی

دعائیں مانگو

جو تمہیں یاد ہوں

 دل آباد ہوں

کہکشاں  ٹوٹتی ہے

دعائیں مانگو

Indeed Quran as a whole is just beautiful, but my mind always get stuck on these ayaat,

Indeed Quran as a whole is just beautiful, but my mind always get stuck on these ayaat, (reason being its beauty, each n every word, resides a whole world in it. Ayaat where ALLAH himself is describing who's ALLAH... ) *Goosebumps

When I was a child, I used to ponder how must be God, how must HE look like, who actually HE'S and stuff like that! On asking mama, she told me that ALLAH NOOR HAI ..then where is that light, NOOR, be Present?? Is it only above the heavens??

Or everywhere?? Wasn't able to make out that "Where"? Questions like these continuously kept on popping in my mind (you might too sometime have encountered questions like that) when in 2017 for the very first time (I admit) I went through the translation of SURAH E NOOR (though when I was 8 or 9 we started Quran with translation but wasn't able to complete it) 

And it was the SURAH that made my each and every query as clear as a crystal 

Translation: 

Allah is the Light of the heavens and the earth. The example of His light is like a niche within which is a lamp, the lamp is within glass, the glass as if it were a pearly [white] star lit from [the oil of] a blessed olive tree, neither of the east nor of the west, whose oil would almost glow even if untouched by fire. Light upon light. Allah guides to His light whom He wills. And Allah presents examples for the people, and Allah is Knowing of all things. (24:35)

Indeed HE'S the LIGHT, LIGHT UPON LIGHT, neither of East nor of West! But that WHERE remains as it..

And finally it was in the very next Ayah:

[Such niches are] in Houses which Allah has ordered to be raised and that His name be mentioned therein; exalting Him within them in the morning and the evenings (24:36)

Here many scholars translate this word بیوت (sing: بیت) as mosques! On consulting a dictionary the meaning of this word turns out to be "houses" (in urdu it's translated as مکانات) or any place where somebody can reside and you know when I read this ayah.. the first thing that came to my mind was HEART, yes! aren't these hearts? HEARTS that are lost in HIS remembrance all the time, whether it's day or night! Yes, HE resides in those hearts which are embraced with HIS love, with HIS zikr❤

مسجد ڈھا دے، مندر ڈھا دے

ڈھیندا جو کچھ ڈھا دے 

اک بندے دا دل نہ ڈھاویں

رب دلاں وچ رھیندا

absolutely not'' your national dignity has been preserved

''.absolutely not'' your national dignity has been preserved..

After 2 decades of military presence, US troops are packing their stuff from Afghanistan. They always had to.

In past, Pakistan played a very important role in pushing Taliban to sign agreement with US as result our generations witnessed the consequences. Since 1990s Pakistan has supported Taliban in attempt to push its regional security interests. Pakistan and Afghanistan shares a border of 2,670 kms. There are a thousand Afghan refugees across the border. Pakistan's past foreign policies always created security and image problems in Afghanistan and elsewhere.

 Now when withdrawing, US is looking forward to Pakistan for the same favors as past. Giving opportunities to Pakistan in reestablishing its international image by selling the soveriegnity over dollars. This country has already paid a very heavy price for the past policies. It's a clear NO to the US 

In recent interview to Australian anchor Pakistan's position was made clear by PM IK.

On his question regarding CIA bases across the border PM Khan made a strong and clear statement of ' absolutely not '. There's no way of providing any base or cross border military action from the territory of Pakistan. Anchor reconfirming his stance as ''seriouslyy'' is literally the WHOLE world's reaction now.

Anchor also questioned about CIA director's secret visit to Pakistan which was unofficial on the media. In reply PM confidently confirmed his visit. News were circulating on media about the visit and how pm rejected meeting him and DG isi met him on the issue.

Our enemies never miss any chance to give rise to the internal issues of Pakistan. Unfortunately, our nation gets trap and keep falling out. I don't get the reason of anchor asking questions about his recent statement on Pardah which was interpreted in a wrong way and as always getting potrayed a wrong way. This disgusting reaction of Pakistanis on internet is really disappointing how we are denying and arguing over liberalism and Islam.

Nobody ever expected this confident expression from Pakistan. No matter how much you oppose IK's political performance or personality, no matter how much our internal confllicts and problems are. Our image as a nation must be confident, world should value our presence. I'm proud to say that our representative was not reading scripted statements. 

After years of British slavery, our bodies were set free, physical freedom was a thousand times easier but mental freedom never was. Our minds as nation are still under rule. We are still not confident of our identity, culture, traditions and religion. 

قوموں کی زندگی میں عروج و زوال آتا ہے. اچھے برے وقت آتے ہیں. مگر غیرت مند قومیں کبھی اپنی عزت کا سودا نہیں کرتیں. اپنے انفرادی نظریات کے ساتھ قومی نظریات کو یاد رکھ کر زندگی گزاریں اپنی خودی کو مرنے نہ دی

One must learn to love, and go through a good deal of suffering to get to it, and the journey is always towards the other soul.” ― D.H. Lawrence

بہت عجیب ہیں یہ بندشیں محبت کی۔

نہ اس نےقید میں رکھا، نہ ہم فرار ہوئے۔۔۔۔۔۔ 

جون ایلیا۔۔۔۔

"One must learn to love, and go through a good deal of suffering to get to it, and the journey is always towards the other soul." 

― D.H. Lawrence

_ the regret of not being courages enough to acknowledge One sided feelings .specifically they carry that extinct of un_acknowledgement. Just Considering someone part of us. without taking there side of story. what they really feel. Just entangled in them entirely. 

_ We just don't want them to know sometimes but hoping they feel it sometimes. always Walking extra efforts for them.

The only thing we expect to have them for moments under a sky full of Stars carrying them beside us. Seeking their approvals. Having walk to unknown place holding hands.

and all i wanted was.

_ A simple talk, Shyingly Staring down, holding her hand, Explaining what it feels to love her and evenly sometimes i become tired of loving her without getting something back. and i expect her to just putting her otherhand in my hand. just acknowledging. That's why she chosed me. because all she needed a hand to hold or a heart to understand.

but when in midnight i go under those stars that stare at me, me without her. i tell my self i will try forget her. i just sleep everyday with that in mind and forget the next day, to not remember her.

_ and any otherday I would see her somewhere. nodding to me formally and i will fall again for her. and the loop goes on.