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Tuesday, November 30, 2021

پوچھتا کون ہے


ہم اداسی کے محور میں رہتے ہوئے آخری لوگ ہیں
ایسے مصروف سنسار میں
بھول کر بھی ہمارے لیے
سوچتا کون ہے ؟
پھر کبھی یاد اگر آ بھی جائیں تو 
پوچھتا کون ہے ؟ _🦋

نومبر ﮐﮯ ﻣﮩﯿﻨﮯ ﮐﺎ ﻭﮦ ﺷﺎﯾﺪ ﺁﺧﺮﯼ ﺩﻥ ﺗﮭﺎ




نومبر ﮐﮯ ﻣﮩﯿﻨﮯ ﮐﺎ
ﻭﮦ ﺷﺎﯾﺪ ﺁﺧﺮﯼ ﺩﻥ ﺗﮭﺎ
ﺑﺮﺱ ﮔﺰﺭﮮ ﮐﺌﯽ
ﻣﯿﮟ ﻧﮯ " ﻣﺤﺒﺖ "
ﻟﻔﻆ ﻟﮑﮭﺎ ﺗﮭﺎ
ﮐﺴﯽ ﮐﺎﻏﺬ ﮐﮯ ﭨﮑﮍﮮ ﭘﺮ
ﺍﭼﺎﻧﮏ ﯾﺎﺩ ﺁﯾﺎ ﮨﮯ
ﮐﺴﯽ ﺳﮯ ﺑﺎﺕ ﮐﺮﻧﯽ ﺗﮭﯽ
ﺍﺳﮯ ﮐﮩﻨﺎ ﺗﮭﺎ ﺟﺎﻥِ ﺟﺎﮞ
ﻣﺠﮭﮯ ﺗﻢ ﺳﮯ ﻣﺤﺒﺖ ﮨﮯ
ﻣﮕﺮ ﻣﯿﮟ ﮐﮩﮧ ﻧﮩﯿﮟ ﭘﺎیا 
ﻭﮦ ﮐﺎﻏﺬ ﺁﺝ تک
ﻟﭙﭩﺎ ﭘﮍﺍ ﮨﮯ ﺩﮬﻮﻝ ﻣﯿﮟ ﻟﯿﮑن
ﮐﺴﯽ ﮐﻮ ﺩﮮ ﻧﮩﯿﮟ ﭘﺎیا !!! 

Monday, November 29, 2021

صبح بخیر ۔

بسم اللہ الرحمن الرحیم 
السلام علیکم 
صبح بخیر ۔

‏کبھی تھک جائیــــــــں 
 کبھی ٹوٹ جائیــــــــں تو کسی کو کانوں کان خبر نہ ہونے دیں .
اور جو بھی دُکھ ہیــــــــں اپنے رب کریم کے حضور بیان کریں .
 ٹوٹے دل اور آنسوؤں کی قدر صرف اللہ کے پاس ہے .
 باقی تو سب تماشائی ہیــــــــں .
منزل سب کـی اللّٰہ ہـی ہـے .
محبت ،غـم، ازمائـش!
تـو سـفـر کـا حصّہ ہــے.


Saturday, November 27, 2021

You see so much beauty in others but failed to see yours. You have something to offer too.

You see so much beauty in others but failed to see yours. You have something to offer too. You are beautiful. You are talented. You have potentials. You are your own version and definition of you. You are an art yourself, a work in progress, yet, never less, never incomplete—just being you, wholesome. 

You too deserve that compliment and positive adjectives you used to tell others. You just have to believe that you are amazing, not like any others, but like you.

Even if the world isn't giving you back the favor, just always be gentle on yourself. You can be your own positive attraction.


As you grow older and get to hold a grasp of how things work

As you grow older and get to hold a grasp of how things work, you will then see what really matters most. You will learn that it is not really necessary to let everyone in your premises just to feel that your existence is validated and just to feel like you belong in a particular crowd. It is okay if you had to cut some toxic relationship with people, or walk out and leave arguments that don't serve you. You should learn not to compromise your peace and happiness over things that matter less and over people who don't even care about how you feel. Your mental health matters a lot—be brave not to look back and just be on your way. Let them hear the sound of your footsteps fading away, let them and let go. 

Letting go is not always a loss.

-LET THEM LOSE YOU🖤


You need to let people lose you, let them go along with the crowd, let them believe what they want to believe, let them think that they can get better, let them sleep on your worth.
Because in due time, they will realise the mistake they made and it will be just enough time for you to accept that you're better off without them!!- 🕊️💙


دھنک کے رنگ دیکھے ہے نہ تم نے...؟



دھنک کے رنگ دیکھے ہے نہ تم نے...؟
ہاں وہ بلکل اُن  کے جیسی ہی ہے رنگ برنگے جزبوں سے لبریز چلبلی لڑکی.....!
ہر رنگ میں وہ اپنی کہانی کا عکس چھپائے بیٹھی ہے... 
رنگ اُسے اِس لیے نہیں بھاتے کہ یہ ہر خاص و عام کے لیے توجہ کا مرکز ہوتے.....
آہاں بلکہ وہ تو خود رنگوں جیسی ہے کہی شوخی کا جہاں کہی پھیکی سی....!
کہی اسکا رنگ تیز جزبوں کی دھوپ میں. اترنے لگتا...
اور کہی محبت کی ٹھنڈی پھوار پڑتے ہی نکھرنے لگتا....!
نکھرے رنگ خوبصورت ہوتے ہیں نہ...؟
ہاں وہ بلکل اِن کے جیسی ہی ہے.... ❤️

منزلیں الگ ہوں تو راستے جلدی الگ کر لینے چاہئیں

منزلیں الگ ہوں تو راستے جلدی الگ کر لینے چاہئیں۔۔۔ 
لمبی اذیت سے بچنے کا اک بہترین طریقہ یہ بھی ہے۔۔۔ جب آپ کو پتا چل جائے کہ اس رستے کے اختتام پر منزل نظر نہیں آرہی تو خود کو اور دوسروں کو جھوٹی تسلیاں دیتے ہوئے وقت گزاری نہ کریں۔۔۔ ہم یہ کہتے ہوئے چلتے رہتے ہیں وقت آیا تو دیکھی جائے گی لیکن المیہ یہ کہ جب وقت آتا ہے ہم سے دیکھا ہی نہیں جاتا۔۔۔۔
بنا منزل کا راستہ ازیت، مایوسی اور بیزاری کے سوا کچھ بھی نہیں دے سکتا۔۔۔

Friday, November 26, 2021

ENDURANCE – A PATH LEADS TO BOUNTIES

 Those who resides  in the heart are the ones who ruin the peace of the heart.


You might witnessed . The ideology of life is nothing but, here the loyal ones always receive animosity in response of their regardless love.


Then the poor owners of beautiful character often become impatient and asked their selves.


‘ Is this our destiny to remain at the sight of self-indulgent 


 people  every time’?


Referring  to all those beautiful heart owners hereby,


Why are you sad?


Why do you make your heart grieved?


Why you are having regrets regarding your utmost love?


You are beautiful in your own way.


 Your soul is pure.


Your intentions are clear.


You believe in spreading happiness.


You are an inspirational cup of tea in the days of Autumn.




You better know how to confront with indulgence.


Have you ever wonder , besides all those hardships and agonies why your heart still continues and blemishes to be an optimistic perso


The answer is pretty simple , all those struggles you have been through , all those hardships you have suffered, all those agonies and aches your soul tolerated were meant to make you a gem, a priceless and a precious  gem, my dea


‘This life which seems so fair is like a bubble blown up in the air


On one fine day , these all beautiful images and views of life will fade away

The luxuries , the lavish life styles , the aches , the hurdles, the melodies of nature will come to an end.




The only thing any soul retain will be their struggles and their rewards bestowed upon them by their lord.


So, don’t be afraid never lose hope , if the life is revealing the harsh realities upon you so you are a luckiest person because the contemplations are only for those who seek guidance and strive to be on right path.


Remember one thing that Allah has chosen you for TRIALS as he has promised to make things easy for you and all the eases are his blessings , indeed.



“This life is the TEST and TRIALS and the TESTS are TRIALS. Life is a trial, every time you realize that.


 It’s okay to be scared , it’s okay to cry, but giving up should not be an option.


They always say that FAILURE is not an option . FAILURE should be an option because when you fail,


 you get up and then you fail and then you get up and that keeps you going.”


(MUNIBA MAZARI)


Those who shattered your heart into pieces are the only ones who respond to your fidelity with their abhorrence.




‘Success is not final,


 Failure is not fatal;


 It is the courage to continue that counts.’





DISTRACTIONS

 


I still remember the days when my breath was stuck in my throat, the things around me, even though they were in their original state, seemed to be threatening, frightening me like a weird horrible Dinosaur. When a person despairs he is in worst state of losing hope, desperately. Then it seemed as if everything has stopped working fairly, now nothing can happen. The demoralizations prevailing inside becomes the worst enemies of humans sometimes and the hidden storms zinced the power of the mind. Every inch of ability to think and understand disappears gradually, as time went by a person was about to crumble and tremble in his own unsought battles. You know how painful it is to be crippled, to burn your own soul into ashes!


Then maybe such circumstances produces a right MOMENT to give some SPACE to your life in order to embrace your inner peace, to boost it up, to enhance & strengthen your mental health. When all you can do is to seek patience and believe in optimism, passionately.


But, what do you think? Being realistic, is it so easy to get yourself up , to make yourself patient , to deteriorate all the ifs and buts prevailing inside your mind imploring you to yell , to scream louder just to receive some sort of relaxation which is although a timely act.


You stumbled because if you want to get up again, you will start staggering. We humans are indeed so unpredictable creatures on Earth, even a person himself often fails to recognize his own emotional flaws and values. Has time ever stopped for anyone? NO, a big no here, TIME will never ever suppose to stop for anyone, it keeps going and life goes on. All we can do is to set up our own pace of life with speed of time.




Whether the time seems good or bad, fortunate or unfortunate, it is destined to pass.                              


Do you know why? So, that you may recover a little, following the rituals of not going on the distracted paths on which you got stumbled, onc


‘The same thing that they believe will be more effective than turning


It isn’t only a thought provoking inside your heart but the below mentioned sentence has a mesmerizing impact on wounded hearts, indee


“Allah passes man from the worst to the best


Keep yourself optimistic and rely on God before such cruel or harsh Pandora boxes reveals unto you. Try to return to your LORD and obey his instructions which are in best interest of human




When the servant obeys his will, then there comes a time when he will return to his own.


 The intellectual capabilities calls upon that man cannot even think the way things tend to be happened.



The Girl Next Bench

 


It was 8am in the morning, 8am again. Life has been pushed on a seat which was on a journey to hell. It wasn’t same as it was before, in late 2010. Those mushy, comfortable nights and cold mornings were what I wish today; well I don’t think I’ll get those days back ever, of course time machine isn’t here still. You know what’s worst? Loosing feelings for someone/something, the feeling before having something can’t be compared with the feeling after having them; after winning things you prayed to have, you feel different, you feel relaxed and happy. And it’s rightly said that we, humans, forget the real value of things right after having them.


So, it was an energetic, bright morning when I hard-pressed myself to a warm bath; well to be honest I didn’t last more than 10 minutes, as the water was icy. It wasn’t my first university class, but I had to go fresh and active to remain attentive and progressive.


You ever feel empty? Empty, calm and cold on a bike taxi? Well I do! Every time I travel from Bykea (bike taxi) in early mornings, I get this insane, abnormal feeling from the environment; it doesn’t feel home, but it memorizes me of the age when my beloved father used to hold my hand and take me to my school located near our home. Those soft, memorable days. Aahh!!! I still remember them, and not just remember them, but sometimes I allow my eyes to wash themselves out too when remembering those happy, tensionless, pure, joyful moments. I guess that’s where you come to know that you are alive, your inner self, your older self, and most importantly, real you and your soul are alive.


 This is where life and living matters the most, when you feel each thing you expect yourself to feel, when you don’t just see things from your naked eyes, but analyze them, see them with your vision, history and creating a mind map in your pea sized brain, connecting things to past memories, events and accidents. I guess this is where it matters all, your efforts, thinking power, those puzzling, baffled, mind disorientating thoughts. This is what’s important, in an upgrading and digitalizing world, old thoughts, you smiling on them, pushing your way to think more of them, recreating those worthy moments and putting your 100% in meaningful things is important. It may not sound lovely, but it’s definitely lively.


With all this, I stepped off the bike and handed over a 100 rupee note to taxi driver. And here it was! Start of a new and life changing journey.


I entered the light blue colored gate, and saw students wearing shoulder bags, teachers rushing to classes, and guards welcoming students, protecting the campus. It hit me as my school days. I could imagine little kids, a little playground and all these activities happening in late 2010. A cheerful smile on my face showed all; I guess that’s what we are, a cluster of thoughts, imaginations and fears and strengths, and a mixture of all. One can never understand other; how do you expect one to know other when you don’t even know yourself properly.



Limits

 



Humans nowadays have limited themselves to a very great extent. There is only a minority of those who actually push themselves, who know that there are no limits. We can go as far as we want but we have only one life to do that. Humans are duped & misled that they forget their real limits. They are limited to society’s standards, they are limited to just earn money & forge a livelihood out of it & that’s all. But that’s not what we were made for, that’s the truth we don’t understand.

Humans were supposed to be happy for real, not just put a happy facade in front of society & then weep in solitude.
They were supposed to go after their passions, their dreams, their ambitions, etc but what they are doing instead, is killing them.
We were supposed to be happy about others’ happiness & support each other but what we are doing is the opposite.

This is one reason why there are many people who are depressed & despondent. Whenever someone gets up to follow their ambitions, they are immediately bombarded with questions & criticism & what else.

The world today is really going into self-destruct mode, there is so much to write about the interim condition but the mind can’t process it. There is so much to reconstruct & mend but no one knows what to start with…





“MORNING STRUGGLES”

 



4am, and she is sleeping,

It feels like she was weeping,


She feels someone patting on her shoulder,

Who is this? Clearing her sleepy blurry eyes,

Oh its you again, with a taunting tone,

Its her right shoulder angel,


Telling her, its morning little baby,

Get up its time for praying,


She wasn’t listening,

She was ignoring,

So, the angel starts singing,


Oh my little one,

Oh my beloved one,

Oh my pretty angel,

Wake up wake up,

It’s time to take off,

Take off for ablution,


You my little one,

I wanna see you in Jannah,

You are a good girl,

Come on, let’s get up,

Let’s tell Allah why were you crying,

Whey were you dying,

HE is there waiting for the little one,

The drowsy one,

The broken one,


You my pretty one,

You my little one,

It’s been long sleep,

Let’s wake up,

From the long sleep,

From the unhealthy sleep,

From the depression causing sleepless sleep,


She shock her blanket off,

She tore her tiredness off,

She looked for the voice,

She looked around,

No one was there,

She was angry as always,

And was wandering where the voice went as always,

But it was late, she was awake,

Her sleep was gone,

She stood up alone, walk to the bathroom,

Washed her face,

Looked into the mirror,

Staring at her dark circles, creating a scene, horror,

Washed her face again again,

Throwing water, with frustration,

To remove those dark circles, those wrinkles,

She smiled for a second, she hated her wrinkled smile as always,


She came out, with water dripping from every edge of hers,

As if, she took shower with her cloths on,

But it was anger, her frustration that was dripping,


She looked for prayer mat,

Lying on the floor as always,

She was shocked as always,

She felt a strange presence around her,

Presence was strange but peaceful for her,


She prayed, she felt relayed,

She heard a voice, well played angel,

She was smiling with tears rolling,

She tried her best,

Tried mending her Connection with her creator.


PSYCHO

 



“Psycho” it’s not the first time I read this word.

A text message notification lighted up my phone screen. I read it at first glance but opened and read it again.

Not long ago, he started referring me with this name.

May be being pure, caring & loving unconditionally were not normal traits of a human. The face of humanity was being tainted with materialism. Where a small-town girl was an outcast.

I replied,” your psycho.”



The saved contact name was DESIRE.

As I desired nothing more than that person in that phase of my life.

When we meet he saw his contact name in my phone “desire” he took a closer look in my eyes and said “psycho” with a taunting smile. That smirk around his lips was burning my heart. But I smiled back and said, “I guess I’m”.



So childish of me. I had no idea why he kept referring me a psycho, am I really one? But what makes a person psycho? Maybe I’m too clingy? But does not that’s what he loves about me? Never thought any of it. A teenage girl never knew the art of fancy words and delicacy of her heart. All she knew was to love, to be kind, to be available for the ones who are in pain. Not worrying about outcomes and irrespective of her personality falling apart. Sadly, she does not know who she really was. And how much wildness she was holding in herself. How much love her tiny heart was pouring out to the unnecessary people? Whom she nurtured as flowers, but they came out as weeds. Ruining the beauty of her thoughts and purity of her soul.



She was selfless without knowing what that word means merely at the age of eighteen. She fought the chaos. An admired, rosy, chatty girl, grown twice of her actual age. Fighting the inner demons and external beasts. She came out of hell, all alone, wearing the crown of her dignity. That she deserved. The raising voices silenced. The hands hungry to grope her feminism, felt ashamed of themselves.


The arms who demolished her innocence, cried of emptiness and asked for forgiveness. Not because they realized they were doing wrong to her, in reality the tables turned the day she came to know that SHE DESERVES WHAT SHE SERVES. Until now, she thought love, care, kindness, respect, all of them were not the things to be done for return. And she was right, partially, as she was unaware that she all of deserves them.




Many are still mourning for her old soul, that is not available anymore.

That small-town girl learned the firework of emotions. She came to know that her presence can heal or steal any heart. But she is not just for anyone who comes across.


She can be fire or ice,

she can be love or lust,

she can be calm as the ocean

and wild as thunder,

she can be dancing rain

or a rigid mountain,

she can be as dark as night

or rainbow or sun like bright,

she can be a star

the world can cherish from afar,

she can be wine or whiskey

but not available at any bar.

She is a woman who knows her worth, that kind of woman is easy to fall for but hard to handle. What an irresistible madness she is.



I guess he knew, all of this. The one who named me PSYCHO.


Not only my wordplay art, but a part of me.

Wednesday, November 24, 2021

~"Once in your lifetime, you get to know one person,


 ~"Once in your lifetime, you get to know one person, and you know very well, deep down in your heart that you'll have feelings for this person your whole life." 🤍

-Rukiye


True love begins the moment you fell in love with someone's heart. That person's well-being becomes your priority. You love that person in a way which brings you only peace and tranquility in your heart. I'm not talking about that toxic way of loving someone, where you forget about your creator. Rather that person will complete the half of your deen and will support you in everything which brings you closer to ALLAH. 🕊✨💙




When you open yourself up to people

"When you open yourself up to people, when you lower your guard for a moment and decide to be vulnerable, when you gather the courage to say what you feel, you'll inevitably get hurt.

Someone will betray your secrets. Someone will laugh at your vulnerabilities. Someone will light your heart on fire. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes not.

Your relationship with the Creator is different though. You can pour out every secret to Him and know you'll never be betrayed. You can speak your dreams up to the sky, and you won't hear incredulous laughter or a voice saying, "That's a silly dream."

You can raise your hands and say, "I am so sad" or furious or disappointed, and you won't hear, "Get over it already."

Nothing but love and mercy and forgiveness comes from opening up to The Merciful. He is shy to leave asking hands empty. But we continuously seek comfort and sustenance and love elsewhere, and then become surprised when we are met with ridicule or hurt.

There are wonderful souls wandering this earth, opening their hearts to people like you and me. But even with them, even in their warmest embraces and kindest words, you will not find the comfort of open palms towards the sky, and an open heart towards Allah." 🌸✨



Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Busy Road Busy Lives

Busy roads are like busy human lives.
Let's have an example of a busy road.
There are many cars, old, new, branded, with different models, and versions. Car with 2017 model, 2018 model, 2008 model. Car with green color, black color, grey color. Car's named Honda Suzuki, Corolla gli xli atlas, Alto, Mercedes-Benzes, limo, Cuore and many different brands, Versions, models. What matters in those cars? Good engine, healthy regular service, high octane petrol. Taking good care of that car.
Car with good engine reaches its destination within time and successfully.


Car with poor engine, poor health, poor petrol, poor condition cause problems, sometimes it may cause accidents, leads to someone's death.
And and proper driving skills are also required to drive that car.


There are so many brands models but still they are called cars.
I can relate this to human lives.
Humans are of different color, culture, creed, caste but still they are called Humans. Human born in 1999, in 1998, in 1990, in 2000, in 2005 in 2015 or in 2020.


Humans with different castes Butt, Sheikh, Malik, Kambooh, Arain etc
Humans with different color dark, brown, dusky, black, white with minor changes in complexions.
What matters is the brain of the human and the heart.


A human who consumes positivity, eat healthy, live healthy is the one who will reach his destination within time and successfully and happily.
A human with poor mental condition, poor diet, poor health may cause living worst. They might kill themselves of the mental condition. You never know how much slow poisoning of thoughts effects you. How much it destroys you.


It's not a rocket science i guess. Everyone can focus on its own health.
Everyone is running on its own busy road of life. No one is gonna stop and help you out. Yeah there are people who stop in the busiest road and help people.

They are rare.
Definitely human nature is to help others.



زندگی اپنے آپ میں ایک معجزہ ہے

بسم اللہ الرحمن الرحیم 
السلام علیکم 
صبح بخیر ۔

زندگی اپنے آپ میں ایک معجزہ ہے 
اِس معجزے کو ہر سانس جئیں 
اپنی نااُمیدیوں کو نئی روشنیاں دیں 
اور  اِس حقیقت پر یقین رکھیں 
جو زمین والوں سے نہیں ہوتا 
وہ آسمان والے سے ہوتا ہے 
اور ضرور ہوتا ہے 
ہر انسان کے لیے ہوتا ہے۔
ان شاء اللّٰـــــــہ


W E D N E S D A Y

Wednesday used to be my non-favorite day in the week, not because something bad happened to me on this particular day. But it was an eerie feeling. I disliked Wednesdays. It's a Wednesday, I'm screwed. I felt nothing good will ever come my way on Wednesday.


I was wrong, you came to me on Wednesday.


One day, I came back from college. As soon as opened my inbox, there was a picture message from you. Nowadays, it's no big deal. But seven years back it was a massive mood lifter for us(the nineties kids) we are not born in this era of advanced technology. So, a little touch of something new in our day used to lift our mood and emotions a hundred times. Yet again it was the Wednesday I disliked.


I vividly remember that image had a flower bouquet at left side having shiny background. On the right side there was an ocean blue card on that it was written in bold letters
"HAPPY WEDNESDAY PRINCESS"
of course no one has ever wished me a day like this before. Neither I had this kind of special connection with a boy who can call me princess and most importantly you treated me like one. (I can't deny that, and I never will).
A smile captivated not only my lips but my whole body. It was the first time I felt that happiness can travel down our spine to fingertips.
Stared once, stared twice, replied, "Thank you."


It was our first date. My first date in eighteen years because I found the boy whom I can call not only my boyfriend but lover. Nothing comes free, and sixth sense never lies. These rules never failed me even once. The love I cherished, stayed not more than two years.
You came as a fresh breeze in summer and left in spring of proceeding year.
Broken me, thought that I will never be able to love again.


Here I was wrong, and I realized it when I was at the airport to catch a flight back home. There was a man standing in front of me staring at me as his eyes were scanning my soul. I was so dumbfounded, until today, that what I felt for him was more than a mere crush that I denied. His constant sighs kept asking me to stay.


Finally those silent contemplations ended, and he said," double check everything, are you sure you got all the things with you?"
I checked my phone, passport, ticket, ID.
"Yes, all done." I replied with a forced smile.
"Liar" he said underneath his breath, but I heard it. I gave him. A confused look.
"Leave, its time of your flight in a while"
He pushed my shoulder.
"Are you this desperate to send me away?"
I asked, holding his arm.
He nodded.


I left him in the hallway. And not  looked back even though I wanted to. But I felt his eyes glancing at me from back as they were going to burn me out today.
As I boarded on plane. The flight was ready to take off. I opened my bag to keep my phone & found a letter there.
A small piece of lemon colored paper, having zigzag cuts around corners, tiny heart drawn at bottom left corner.


As I begin to read, "I have never meet such a kind person like you. Who would do anything for other's comfort. Come to me whenever you need comfort or love for yourself.
I love you.
Yours from today and every coming second."
Without his name I knew it was his handwriting. He was not pushing me away, he was pleading to make me to stay.
I was in the air, but I had left my heart somewhere on the earth. That's why he asked me to double-check.
Meanwhile, words rolling on back seat LCD caught my sight. Wednesday 12:23am. Ahh! This damn Wednesday.


Monday, November 22, 2021

ﺳﺐ ﮐﻮ ﮨﻤﯿﺸﮧ ﻣﺠﮫ ﺳﮯ ﺑﺲ ﺍﯾﮏ ﮨﯽ ﮔﻠﮧ ﺭﮨﺘﺎ ﮨﮯ ﻣﯿﮟ خود سے ﺭﺍﺑﻄﮧ ﻧہیں ﮐﺮﺗﯽ

ﺳﺐ ﮐﻮ ﮨﻤﯿﺸﮧ ﻣﺠﮫ ﺳﮯ ﺑﺲ ﺍﯾﮏ ﮨﯽ ﮔﻠﮧ ﺭﮨﺘﺎ ﮨﮯ ﻣﯿﮟ خود سے ﺭﺍﺑﻄﮧ ﻧہیں ﮐﺮﺗﯽ 
ﻣﯿﮟ ﺑﺎﺕ ﻧﮩﯿﮟ ﮐﺮﺗﯽ ،
 ﻣﯿﮟ ﺯﯾﺎﺩﮦ ﮨﯽ ﻣﺼﺮﻭﻑ ﮨﻮﮔﺌﯽ ﮨﻮﮞ ،
 ﻣﺠﮭﮯ ﻣﻄﻠﺐ نہیں ﮐﺴﯽ ﺳﮯ ﮐﻮﺋﯽ ﺟﯿﮯ ﻣﺮﮮ
ﻣﯿﮟ ﺍﯾﺴﯽ ﺑﮯﺣﺲ ﮨﻮں ﮐﮧ ﻣﺮﺗﮯ ﮐﻮ ﺍﯾﮏ ﮔﮭﻮﻧﭧ ﺑﮭﯽ ﻧﮧ
 ﺩﻭﮞ
ﻣﺠﮭﮯ ﺑﺲ ﺍﭘﻨﯽ ﭘﮍﯼ ﺭﮨﺘﯽ ﮨﮯ ﻣﯿﮟ ﯾﮧ نہیں ﺩﯾﮑﮭﺘﯽ ﮐﮧ
ﮐﺴﯽ ﺍﻭﺭ ﮐﺎ ﮐﯿﺎ ﺣﺎﻝ ﮨﮯ ، میں ایک دن خالی ہاتھ رہ جاؤں گی کچھ نہیں بچے گا میرے پاس نہ کوئی رشتہ اور نہ کوئی احساس ،
ﯾﮧ ﺳﺐ ﻋﺠﯿﺐ ﮨﮯ ﻧﮧ ؟؟؟
ﭘﺮ ﭘﺘﺎ ﮨﮯ ﻋﺠﯿﺐ ﯾﮧ ﺑﮭﯽ ﮨﮯ ﮐﮧ ﺩﯾﮑﮭﺘﮯ ﺩﯾﮑﮭﺘﮯ ﮨﯽ ﺑﮩﺖ ﮐﻢ ﻭﻗﺖ ﻣﯿﮟ ﻣﯿﮟ ﻧﮯ ﺍﭘﻨﮯ ﺑﮩﺖ ﺳﺎﺭﮮ ﺩﻭﺳﺖ ﺑﮩﺖ ﺳﮯﺭﺷﺘﮯ ﺑﮩﺖ ﺳﮯ ﻋﺰﯾﺰ ﮐﮭﻮ ﺩﺋﯿﮯ ﭘﮭﺮ ﻭﮦ ﺑﮭﻠﮯ ﻣﯿﺮﯼ ﺳﻮﺷﻞ
ﻻﺋﻒ ﺳﮯ ﺟﮍﮮ ﺗﮭﮯ ﯾﺎ ﺣﻘﯿﻘﯽ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﯽ سے ، 
جانتی ہو یہ وہ لوگ تھے جنکے ساتھ میں جتنی مخلص رہ سکتی تھی رہی، جتنا رابطہ رکھ سکتی تھی رکھا ، حتیٰ کہ چوبیس گھنٹوں میں سے بیس گھنٹے انہی کیساتھ گزرتے تھے ، پھر کیا ہوا؟؟ 
کچھ بھی نہیں بچا ، کچھ بھی نہیں کا مطلب سمجھتی ہو تم؟؟؟ 
میں یہ بھی نہیں کہہ رہی میں نے ان سے صلے کی امید رکھ کر نبھا رکھا تھا ، مجھے تو بس دکھ ہے افسوس ہے کہ ﻣﯿﮟ ﺍﻧﮩﯿﮟ ﺭﻭﮎ ﺑﮭﯽ نہیں ﺳﮑﯽ ،
مجھے نہیں معلوم وہ سب یہ ازیت محسوس کر بھی پاۓ کیونکہ انکی زندگیوں میں میری اتنی اہمیت یا اتنی جگہ ہی نہیں بن پائی ۔محسوس تو وہ کرتے ہیں ناں 
جو منتیں کرتے ہیں۔سوال کرتے ہیں ۔ضد کرتے ہیں۔ حق جتاتے ہیں۔
منا لیتے ہیں
ﺧﯿﺮ ﻣﯿﮟ ﺍﺱ ﺑﺎﺕ ﮐﻮ ﻣﺎﻧﺘﯽ ﮨﯽ نہیں ہوں کہ جانے والوں کو روکا جائے یہ منت ترلہ ، یہ سوال جواب یہ گلہ شکوہ سب ثانوی چیزیں ہیں ، 
رشتے نبھانے کے اور بھی بہت سے طریقے ہوا کرتے ہیں مگر میں آج جہاں پہنچ چکی ہوں اس سب ثانوی چیزوں سے بہت آگے نکل چکی ہوں ،
اور یہ بات اچھی طرح سمجھ چکی ہوں کہ کہ ﺭﺷﺘﻮﮞ ﮐﻮ نبھانے ﮐﯿﻠﺌﮯ
ﺍﻇﮩﺎﺭ ﮐﯽ ، ﮐﺴﯽ ﭨﯿﮑﺴﭧ ﮐﯽ ، ﯾﮧ ﻟﻤﺒﯽ ﻟﻤﺒﯽ ﮐﺎﻟﺰ کی ﻭﻋﺪﻭﮞ
ﮐﯽ یا ﺭﺳﻤﯽ ﺣﺎﻝ ﭼﺎﻝ ﮐﯽ ﮐﯽ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﺕ نہیں ہوتی ،  
ﮐﯿﻮﻧﮑﮧ ﺭﺷﺘﮯ ﺗﻮ ﺑﺲ ﺩﻟﻮﮞ ﮐﺎ ﻣﻼﭖ ﮨﻮﺗﮯ ﮨﯿﮟ ، ﺭﻭﺡ ﮐﺎ
ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﮨﻮﺗﮯ ﮨﯿﮟ ﻧﮧ ﮐﮧ ﺑﺮﻗﯽ ﻟﮩﺮﻭﮞ ﭘﺮ ﻗﺎﺋﻢ ﮐﮭﻮﮐﮭﻠﮯ
 ﻋﺎﺭﺿﯽ ﺗﻌﻠﻘﺎﺕ ﮨﻮﺗﮯ ﮨﯿﮟ ۔۔۔ " 
ہاں پھر آپ محبت کریں ، اعتماد کریں ، خوش رہیں بھلے تھک جائیں یا 
اپنی زندگی میں سیاہ و سفید کچھ بھی کریں 
مگر کسی کو مت بتائیں ، اسی میں عافیت ہے آپ کیلئے یقین کریں ۔

Strangerlike encounter



In the midst of violent nights,
The battered casualties laid dead on the cold streets covered with blood
The sounds of rifles going off numerous times was what shock me heavily
I feared for my life,
I wished to join those who were screaming at the top of their lungs as a cry for help 
My eardrums were acquainted with their screams, it was nothing unusual.
I wished to join those who were running for their lives, but my legs were suddenly glued to the ground,
I couldn't move anymore
It was as if my legs were petrified to step on those blood painted streets
My feet had failed me!

In the midst of one violent night, I had a strange feeling 
Instead of nervousness overwhelming my body, 
For a change, a warm feeling clouded my heart, I felt something I wasn't familiar with 
How dare my heart experience such warmth on this very disastrous night? 

In the midst of one violent night, 
In the middle of a blood inked street, 
There she stood, 
Clothed in a black coloured dress that adorned her pear shaped face 

In the midst of one violent night,
I met the love of my life 
When her eyes met mine
There and then I knew what love at first sight was


Sunday, November 21, 2021

 

Time Never Flies



‘Time Flies’ has become a colloquialism nowadays but the reality is very different from that. Time flies means that time goes by very fast & we don’t even get to notice it. It doesn’t, time doesn’t fly, it’s been running at one constant speed since it came into being & it will keep running at that same speed. Yes, there were some occasions where it was halted but its speed never changed, & will never change I guess. The truth to the ‘Time Flies’ phrase is that it isn’t true at all. It’s us, we are too engrossed in our lives & races that we forget to notice the world around us, & that includes time too.


Whenever we want time to pass quickly, it seems like its speed is diminished & whenever we don’t want it to pass, it feels like it just got some turbos. But that’s not the truth, time is at the same speed, it all happens within us.


When we don’t want it to pass because of a certain thing that we want to do or enjoy, we get too indulged in that thing that we forget when time passed, we don’t think of the outside world, it just becomes blurred for us, because that certain thing gets us too wallowed in it.


& whenever we want it to pass quickly, it seems like it lost its speed, but that too isn’t the truth. The truth is that we then wait for it to pass, it’s still at the same speed, but we start noticing it unlike before. When we notice it, the events before when it apparently passed like lighting comes into our mind & we think that we were noticing it all the time, but we weren’t.


It’s just that we forgot its importance…


My Painter

 



‘Afraid!’


‘Why?’


He interrogated while wiping out my tears.


‘Past!’


I answered with a single word.


‘Zara that has gone. Forget it now.’


His fingers were producing friction between my hairs.


‘I have. I have forgotten it. But the broken and shattered soul of mine is not leaving me. I want to slaughter it.’


I became over-hyped, over-aggressive. It seemed like I was really going to slaughter the cracked soul with a sharp-edged knife.


‘To kill it is not the solution. I have an idea.’


He said while wiping out my tears again.


‘Share immediately.’


Now my over-aggression was changed into over-excitement.


‘I will recolor and refill your soul.’


How can a person recolor a deep black soul? His idea was cracking up at me.


‘The blackness of my soul will absorb all your colors, my painter. Black can soak up all the colors. Blackness is an enemy of colors.’


He was checking temperature by putting his palm on my forehead.


‘I will absorb every chunk of blackness prevailing in your soul and then recolor the transparent soul with my colors.’


He was smiling and his eyes were flashing.


‘ Mine painter.’


I also laughed with tears in my eyes.


‘Your past absorber too.’


He wiped my tears again.


‘I am wiping them for the last time. Now,’


I interrupted him.


‘Now I’m going to laugh and giggle for throughout the life. I can complete your sentences.’


From over-agression to over-excitement, now I was over-confident.



TEARS REFLECTION OF PURE SOULS



 Looser!


Looser!


In the break time of a primary boys school a little boy who was just 7 years old fell on the muddy clustered ground . His white school uniform become dirty as the patches of mud were scattered on his T-shirt. He was helpless and remains yelling and weeping there as the screams of children threatened him and they were laughing and kept roaring


‘You are a looser! Oh little boy’. ‘You are a looser!’


There was an announcement which strikes on his ear drum suddenly and helped him to pour his head out of the reminiscent from past school diaries , he smiled a little and shakes his head slightly claiming his coward attitude.


It was the eve of Annual College prize distribution ceremony and now after few years that young little coward boy has grown into an adult teenager . It was 10’o clock in evening and there came an announcement by the host :


Ladies and gentlemen put your hands together , in a huge round of applause please welcome our exceptionally brilliant student ‘DAVID KIMS’ on securing first position in the ‘Annual writing competition for boys college’. He stood up from his position and his steps following the paths slowly to reach stage as he was seated in the second last rows , with the sobbed eyes he arrives on stage and receives his first prize and best writing award by his principal.


Those tears those lame criticisms and recriminations which were once reason of his fear and frights have now become a successful and yet the strongest pillars of his life. People might say what they wanted to and no one can even stop their stupid tongues.


Those tears which you have flown once due to anxieties and agitations have praised you extra courageous vibes to fight not to flight. If you have fallen apart, if your soul has torn into scattered pieces, if you are willing to shriek in desperate hours of agonies , do it. Remember one thing each and every hurdle you are confronting is secretly giving you a magical treasure box filled with stamina to boost up your confidence level , your morale to stay consistent and bring you steadfastness in order to bear the challenges of life.



People might make fun of your TEARS , with an aim to depress you , to frighten you but they do not even know they are indirectly giving you an anti-depressing therapy to omit the aches from the edges of your eyes. Eyes are reflections of purity of a soul. Eyes can never lie , they are vigorous yardsticks against each and every misery.


The conversation which lies behind the words are exceptionally amazing because our eyes are uttering hundreds and thousands of wordless expressions and phrases which are beyond everything. Similarly , the societal judgments and false claims can be easily neglected if you have valorous and mettlesome sight.


To cry; to weep or to shriek are the natural phenomenon of life. The very moment a new born child opens his eyes in this ruthless world he screams , a person in mild pain sobbed or scream , a happy person giggles and his laughter added weepy sounds to the environments.


Some people got ROLLER COASTER of emotions while enjoying their favorite serials on You tube , too. Tears have never been claimed as a reflection of grief but they are indeed a mirror image of each and every emotion. No matter whatever is it whether expressions of joys, happiness or downhearted regrets. They are indeed reflection of PURE SOULS and their UNTOLD STORIES.




Smile



🙂
Smile, underrated but overused. Unapologetically, we use smiles so often that we are left with no feeling attached to them. We are stressed, we smile to hide it. We are sad, we wear a fake smile. In a crowd where we don't belong, we smile either we understand that what people are talking or doing or not. Some strangers smile at us, we smile back, not knowing why he/she smiled. When a person tells a lie, we want to frown, but we smile like an idiot that we have no idea. He is the saint, whatever he is saying is true. Moreover, in a lapse of sheer disaster when our eyes are filled with tears & we are about to break down. Somebody asks, "Are you okay?" Again we use a smile as the bait and say "yes, all okay." Pathetic smile.

Now, most people would say: "Isn't it good that we act bravely in an hour of despair?" But darling, what is the point of acting bravely when you have left with no strength in your bones. That is more dangerous. Acting what you are not, that is unfair to yourself. Don't wear a mask you can't bear the burden of.

Ask yourself; What is the purpose or emotion attached to a smile? A common answer is "To hide PAIN." That is what we have made from it. But in an actual, smiles are...


You know I love writing about people and things,

You know I love writing about people and things, who don't even know me, or are not aware that I can write for them.

It's just like you observe things, get inspired and pen down your thoughts. 

Wo Subha uth kr apni dukaan lagane wala pathan chacha bhi Mujy inspire karta hai ke dekh mein utha hun, ek Nayi aas lekr, meri ankh mein ek chamak dekh, mere hont'on sy nami bhare alfaz sun, meri dukaan khali zaroor hogi, logon ke dil mein meri bheerh dekh, mera dil saaf Nahi Magar usmy basne wali ek pyaas dekh. Dekh tu Mujy, meri mehnat or mushaqat ko, aur likh, likh ke qalam tera hai Aj, likh ke zamana qalam ka hai, log qalam ke hen abhi Baki. Likh. Likh tareekh banane ke liye, likh ek yaad ban janey ke liye. Likh. 


Saturday, November 20, 2021

About Imran Khan ( President Of Pakistan )


Imran Khan is the 22nd Prime Minister of the Islamic Republic of Pakistan. He is also the current Chairman of Pakistan Tehreek-e-Insaf (Pakistan's Movement for Justice). He holds the vision to transform Pakistan into a Welfare State, based on the principles of "Riyasat-e-Madina".


A graduate of Oxford University's Keble College, Prime Minister Imran Khan champions rule of law, meritocracy, equality and combating corruption.


He received early education from Aitchison College, Lahore where he was also part of the College's cricket team. He continued with the passion for cricket while studying at the Oxford University and captained the University's cricket team in 1974. Later on, he joined Pakistan's National Cricket Team. At the height of his cricketing career, he took over the captaincy of the National Team in 1982 and led Pakistan to historic victory in 1992 Cricket World Cup. He also contributed to introduce neutral umpiring on ground which profoundly transformed the game of Cricket. He is considered one of the greatest all-rounders and captains in cricket history.


Deeply affected by the cause of his mother's death, he founded Shaukat Khanum Cancer Hospital in Lahore in 1994 – the country's state of the art facility for poorest citizens. Since then, he has opened two new such facilities in Peshawar and Karachi. Today, the Hospital treats 70 percent of its patients free of cost. It is Pakistan's greatest charitable institution apart from being Centre of Excellence.


In 2008, he established Namal College in the remote district of Mianwali to impart quality education to the most deserving. With the Institute at its center, Prime Minister espouses to make Namal Knowledge City as Pakistan's largest University town.


It was Imran Khan's foray into philanthropy and his interaction with the common people that led him to join politics. He founded Pakistan Tahreek-e-Insaf (Pakistan's Justice Movement) in 1996. He won election to become a Member of the National Assembly of Pakistan from 2002 to 2007, and again from 2013 to 2018. In 2018 General Elections, he contested from five constituencies and won from all. No politician in country's history has ever won 5 seats and a seat from three out of four provinces of Pakistan. With PTI securing the majority in the National Assembly, he formed his Government on 18 August 2018.


His political struggle, spanning over 22 years, revolves around equality, justice and compassion. Prime Minister Imran Khan holds the vision to transform Pakistan into a Welfare State, based on the principles of "Riyasat-e-Madina". With a people-centric approach, he has launched Ehsaas (Compassion) programme to uplift poor segments of the society in Pakistan.


Prime Minister Imran Khan is an accomplished author. He has written several books including Pakistan: A Personal History that encompasses tales of the events from his cricketing profession to political career.

Friday, November 19, 2021

When you wake up in the morning

When you wake up in the morning close your eyes and before getting out of bed whisper to yourself, "Thank you for the gift of this new day."

Beginning the day with a foundation of gratefulness for your life sets the tone for every decision and action you take.


Last seven years have been a roller-coaster ride in my life.

Last seven years have been a roller-coaster ride in my life. Apart from failures I have been tested almost every single day. Every single moment made me bend down on my knees "helplessly" and cry over tough situations. Every single second have been a mountain on my head and every single day made me feel like giving up writing suicide notes and whatnot.
Alright.


I won't talk about everything but few minor things; few talks that I have been holding since then.


Had to face days where staying away inside the house in dark room overthinking situations literally noone NO ONE took step forward to open chat about my disappearance. I was away from friends and family. Missed birthday parties and friends gatherings while I wasn't invited though got to know about those happenings through streaks & snaps. Alright. That's fine.


I was already slipping in depression insomniac nights and pretty dark days where at exposure to sin after days used to hurt my eyes.
Poplar saying: Facebook is damaging your peace.


Facebook did saved me. I used to write about feelings and moved forward whole year without talking to anyone in my friends circle. As soon as I deleted that page; I was slipped back into staying quite a bit negative and suicidal.
Alright.


It's been seven years. Seven years of tiring years. Seven years of losing peace. Seven years of losing people. Seven years of being depressed. Seven years of being suicidal.
Seven years ago I was cool kid growing teen. Now failure and depressed guy wondering where to begin from.


I will keep drilling to stay positive but please take care of people around you. Take care of your family and siblings. Take care of your siblings mainly of those who have stopped participating in family gathering activities and meals. Please. 


PLEASE!
You can save a life.
Take a step forward to check out on your friends and family.
Smile and greet everyone with smile you'll save a life unknowingly.


Someone asked me

Someone asked me
Why you still love her and pray for her
Even after she rejected you and left you
I told him
She never left me
She is within me 
Whenever i am hopeless she gives me hope
Whenever i write she gives me words
Whenever i sing she gives me lyrics 
Whenever i cry she gives me tears
Whenever i explore my past she gives me chance to smile
Whenever i gave up me she gives me reasons to trust myself
Whenever i am helpless she gives me power
When i am lost she gives me purpose
In the end
Love is not all about romance. sometimes its suffering its pain its helpleseness its loneliness and its a way to meet Allah. And i am blessed she gave me all these and no one has power to take all these away from me.


When you have a difficult family member it's an opportunity to be rewarded by practicing patience

When you have a difficult family member it's an opportunity to be rewarded by practicing patience, overlooking their shortcomings and being kind to people who act childishly. 

It builds character not to react in the same way as people who mistreated you, but to be honorable and dignified. 

Practice self-restraint when dealing with difficult people. I know it's tempting to tell them off or treat them in the same way they treated you, but when you keep Allah in mind you will be focused on getting the best character grade from Him and not to succumb to your base desire of acting impulsively. 

Allah sees who is oppressive and who is God conscious. 

Allah sees who is fair and who is greedy.

Allah sees who is compassionate and who selfish.

All that really matters is that Allah knows. 

Note: I'm not saying in any way to tolerate abuse. 

Ajer=reward 
You're rewarded when you do good despite the rude behavior of others.

Give examples of times when you had a difficult person in your life and you chose to be the bigger person.


-I kept holding them, for so long, because i thought may be, after my many endeavours, or struggles

-I kept holding them, for so long, because i thought may be, after my many endeavours, or struggles, this time everything would get better, but naaaahh! they disappointed me again, and again, and here i was crying thinking why is it happening to me? why always me?


then out of a sudden, i saw an anonymous quote, which goes as, 
//"agar rishta bachaane ke liye jhukna pare to jhuk jao,
-magar baar baar apko jhukna pare to ruk jao."🍁
-


Me hr rishte ko bachane ke liye itna jhuki ke dill thak chuka hai, hr shae se yaqeen uth sa gaya hai but that was the moment when i realized that, i have to stop making efforts for them, and would not bother them again.



Thursday, November 18, 2021

From loving you,to loving you this deep intense..Now you becomes my breath

From loving you,to loving you this deep intense..Now you becomes my breath


I am fully addicted and the addiction is the one and only you..i started loosing my self and slowly becoming you..Your love is something which gives me power..Even the little glimpse of your face makes my mood happy..You stole my heart..And makes it all yours..


 Now i cant escape from your thoughts and infact i don't want to..
 Your love filled my life like the colour's of rainbow make's sky more Alluring..The world is being suspicious that why the girl is losted,and stops her sttuborness...But i and you,only we both knows the reason that the first day when you enters in my life it becomes more and more beautiful..From each passing day my heart fills with more love..Which is only for you only for you..."💙


Wednesday, November 17, 2021

Forgiveness means doing the work necessary to process and understand the feelings of pain

🌼 Forgiveness means doing the work necessary to process and understand the feelings of pain from an experience, allowing it to move through you, then coming out the other side ready to forgive but not forget.

🌼 Forgiveness is something you do for yourself.
Remember that forgiveness doesn't mean you have to tell the other person that you forgive them.

🌼 You forgive to set yourself and your heart free, and this does not mean you have to re-establish a relationship.

🌼 You absolutely do not have to let them back into your life.

🌼 Forgiveness does not mean forgetting.
It also does not mean what happened was okay.

🌼Forgiveness sets you free from the trauma and the other person.

🌼 Forgiveness is for you not the other person.

🌼 Forgiveness gives you your power, and love for yourself and your life back

🌼 Forgiveness means you have all the teachings you need from the experience and now you're living life fully alive and free.

Can we please stop associating being a good person

Can we please stop associating being a good person with how much you're willing to suffer in silence for other people? 

You can be a kind person and still say "no, I don't have the time/energy to help you with that." 

You can be a kind person and still say "this makes me uncomfortable, please stop." 

You can be a kind person and still say "I disagree and here's why." 

You can be kind and still say "I'm not okay with this." Being kind is about treating people with kindness and respect, not about being the human equivalent of a doormat.


تیرا پیار, جیسے گلاب تھا

Try reading this without a smile, 
Wait for the End 🥀

تیرا     پیار,   جیسے  گلاب  تھا 
جو   کبھی  کھلاِ  تھا، چمن   میں میرے 
وہ لال   رنگ جسے   دیکھ  کر 
دل لہو لہان،  ہو کہ رہ گیا 
  
جس  کے  عطر  سے،  یہ  میرا  جہاں 
مدہوش  خوشبو  سے  مہک  گیا 
تھے    پھول  کتنے  ہی  رنگ  برنگ 
لہلا  رہے  نظر  میں  میرے 
مگر،  ایک  وہی  گلاب  تھا 
جو دل ِ   باغ  میں  گھر کر گیا 
 
پر  وہ  پھول  جب  مرجھا  گیا 
ُاس  کی  َپتیوں  نے  ِاسی  باغ  کو 
گویا   قبرستان  اک  بنا  دیا 
جہاں   دفن   ہے   اب  اک  داستان 

وہ  داستاں  تیرے  عشق   کی 
جو  تھی  رواں ہر  لب  پہ کبھی 
جوتھی    موضوعِ   گفتگو   ابھی 
وہ قصہ ، حافظے   سے بھی  مٹ گیا 

اب  تو  باقی   ہے   کانٹا   گلاب   کا 
جو  تیری  یاد  کے  ،  قہر  کی   طرح  
ُاسی  دل میں  ، چبھ  کر  ہے  رہ   گیا 
جس  دل   میں   رہتے  تم     کبھی 
جو دل،    کبھی  تھا   تیرا   آشیاں 
وہ  دل  جو  تھا!  تیرا  سارا  جہاں 

اس  دل کی  خستہ  دہلیز   پر 
تختی ہے ، اب بھی  تیرے  نام  کی
جو شاید !   اب، تا عمر بھر 
کسی  اور  کو، یہاں  بسنے نہ دے

Monday, November 15, 2021

زبان سے معاف کرنے میں وقت نہیں لگتا

☜زبان سے معاف کرنے میں وقت نہیں لگتا مگر دل سے معاف کرنے میں عمریں بیت جاتی ہیں "
زبان کا استعمال سوچ سمجھ کر کیا کیجئے" 
دل کی عدالت سے ہر کوئی اتنی آسانی سے باعزت بری نہیں ہوپاتا۔!!!


Wednesday, November 10, 2021

The night is getting deeper & deeper and the stars have fallen aslee

The night is getting deeper & deeper and the stars have fallen asleep . People around me has fallen asleep too but my eyes are reluctant to fall asleep as it has been for the last 4 months. I have this feeling that my life has been very hard & unfair for me for the last 120 days, tough circumstances have triggered me into self-doubt and despair. I don't know where to go or even who i am. Everything seems confusing and scary. It is hard to see myself being successful, loved, or healthy again. All i m able to c is current unfortunate life situation. I am about to shed tears but meanwhile deep within the endocardium of my ventricles a strong voice is coming which says my dearest self whenever you face trials of any kind it provides u with opportunities to discover who you are meant to be and what u can share of ur gifts to benefit others. Yes the storms is all of a sudden. But Instead of being paralyzed by the uncertainty plx decide to continue being the best u can be , the shock will wear off, the fog is about to dissipate & happiness is still within ur reach. My dear self clarity is arriving gradually. 1day the fog at the beach will eventually be lifted & all the pieces of the puzzle will fall into place to tell u that there was a meaning in what happened to u.  The fog at the beach will eventually be lifted.


Sunday, November 7, 2021

کوئی بھی شحص کسی دوسرے کی جگہ کو نہیں بھر سکتا

کوئی بھی شحص کسی دوسرے کی جگہ کو نہیں بھر سکتا، دلوں میں جگہیں بھی فنگر پرنٹس کی طرح ہوتی ہیں جو کبھی کسی سے میچ نہیں ہوتی۔


Friday, November 5, 2021

I think why we wish to be a grown flower in desert?

I think why we wish to be a grown flower in desert?
Why are we  always in search of that body who can wipe out tears when we know We are alone.Why we always wait for a crowdy ship when we know There is just empty ship.
Why we always wish for those things which seems to be impossible.
Can't we fight alone?
Can't we make things alone?
Can't we smile alone?
Can't we walk alone?
Can't we defeat alone?
Yes ,,We can.Bcz we were born alone so that we might be able to fight alone in this blue world.
Learn to survive alone,fight alone,enjoy alone.🌸


ہم کو تم کو پھیر سمے کا ،لے آئی حیات کہاں ہے۔

ہم کو تم کو پھیر سمے کا ،لے آئی حیات کہاں ہے۔۔۔۔
ہم بھی ہی ہیں ،تم بھی وہی ہو، لیکن اب وہ بات کہاں۔۔۔۔

 کبھی کبھی ہم چھوٹی چھوٹی باتوں سے لرز جاتے ہیں۔۔۔۔ کبھی آپ نے اپنے سکول، کالج ، یونیورسٹی میں ڈگری کے دو تین سال بعد جا کہ دیکھا ہوگا کہ ہر چیز ہماری آنکھوں کے سامنے گھوم رہی ہوتی ہے۔۔۔ ہم اور ہمارے ساتھی انہی راستوں پر کل تک گھوم رہے تھے، ہنس رہے تھے ، اک دوجے کے ساتھ ایسے مگن تھے کہ کبھی سوچا ہی نہیں تھا یہ دو چار سال کا سفر ختم ہو جائے گا۔۔۔ آج بھی وہی رستے ہیں، وہی کوریڈور ہیں، وہی کمرے اور بینچ ہیں لیکن ہم نہیں ہیں ہمارے ساتھی نہیں ہیں۔۔۔۔ جس جگہ بھاگ بھاگ کر جاتے رہے وہیں اکیلے بیٹھ کر دل گھبرا رہا ہوتا ہے۔۔۔۔

ایسے ہی دنیا ہے۔۔۔۔ 
کل ہمارے بڑے تھے، آج ہم ہیں کل کوئی اور ہوگا۔۔۔۔دنیا یوں ہی رہے گی، نظام ایسے ہی چلے گا، لیکن آپکی کمی محسوس نہیں کی جائے گی۔۔۔۔ ہم اگر ایسے ہی چند سال بعد اپنے وقت کے بعد یہاں آ جائیں تو شاید اک پل بھی نہ رہ پائیں۔۔۔ زندگی اپنے وقت میں اپنے لوگوں کے ساتھ ہی گزاری جا سکتی ہے۔۔۔ گزرے پل اور لوگ لوٹ نہیں سکتے نہ انکی کمی پوری ہو سکتی ہے ورنہ جانے والوں کو کون روتا۔۔۔۔ 
وقت کی، لوگوں کی ، ان لمحات کی قدرت کا تحفہ سمجھ کر قدر کر لینا ہی سب بڑی شکر گزاری ہے۔۔۔۔

Imagine getting into Jannah

Imagine getting into Jannah, anxiously looking for the people you loved in this world. Then finally bumping into them, looking at them and excitingly saying to each other…

WE MADE IT! WE MADE IT!


The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore

The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore
Furthermore I'll forget your promises to which you swore
One day , I'll stop searching up your name when all that follows is damn shame
One day , I'll stop writing long paragraphs without having the courage to hit send
One day all of my craziness will come to an end
I'll never compare someones eyes or smile to yours 
I'll never give in , crying behind closed doors
Who am i kidding? What's with all these lies ...
True love never dies those are words of the wise
Those little flashblacks will always tear up my eyes 
I'll never get over you
I'm just gonna have to keep growing through what I'm going through.

But Your happiness means more to me 
Than my own ever could
That's why I'll keep my silence
To not break your marriage just to do your heart good. 

This is my goodbye. I'm letting you go
Your name , your secrets will always be kept safe
Nobody will ever know
I'm Letting go of the love that I couldn't save.
The four years spent together 
Everytime i saw you
you could've knocked me down with a feather 
I'd like to think The best chapter of my story was yours
But i was wrong , you were the entire book
I had nothing left in my heart after everything that you took
My patience
My self-esteem
My confidence
I guess you had me on a hook
You were my silent prayer at night 
In darkness you were my light
Every wrong for you i would rewrite
For your happiness I'd put up a fight
The reason i wanted to become a better person was you
The reason i had faith in love again was you
The reason I'd neglect everyone else was you
But one day my worst nightmare came true
When you left, all you had to say was that we were a mistake
The words still keep me awake
I can still feel the ache
You don't feel the same way anymore , you don't think you can put up with me anymore
What was all of it really for?
Did i take the love of my life really for granted?
when she was and always will be all that i ever wanted?
Cursed for all my actions
Lost myself in fake lies and deceptions
As to this day I'm broken. 
for so long all these thoughts had been unspoken
I know i need to be mature
See the bigger picture
But do You really think my memories won't haunt you in your future?
You wanna know what true love really is?
That i accept the fact that your not mine but his. 
But don't worry I'll forget you one day
I'll mean it when i say I'm okay
The sound of your name won't take my breath away anymore
The smell of your perfume or the sound of our favourite tune will be easier to ignore
Furthermore I'll forget your promises to which you swore
One day , I'll stop searching up your name when all that follows is damn shame
One day , I'll stop writing long paragraphs without having the courage to hit send
One day all of my craziness will come to an end
I'll never compare someones eyes or smile to yours 
I'll never give in , crying behind closed doors
Who am i kidding? What's with all these lies ...
True love never dies those are words of the wise
Those little flashblacks will always tear up my eyes 
I'll never get over you
I'm just gonna have to keep growing through what I'm going through.

But Your happiness means more to me 
Than my own ever could
That's why I'll keep my silence
To not break your marriage just to do your heart good. 

This is my goodbye. I'm letting you go
Your name , your secrets will always be kept safe
Nobody will ever know
I'm Letting go of the love that I couldn't save.






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