Kahkashan Khan Blog

From so many days

I have started to write again

From so many days

I'm not feeling sleepy and lazy all day

I'm more focused, I'm more concerned,I m loving myself

More than before,more than ever

Maybe it's due to little changes

Changes that no one notices but you

Maybe I m drowning in my own thoughts

Maybe I don't care about others nowadays

Maybe I m not comparing my self anymore

Having so many untold talks,stories & tales in my mind from so much time

Maybe now I m wishing to share it with my self

Yesterday I read in an article that happiness is decreasing every year and will end

But I will not be in that number I guess

I will be living happily, & fuckng sorrow&pain

After watching so many seasons &listening so many lectures of teachers everyday

They all saying, they all are indicating

Love your self before loving anyone

Value your self before valuing anyone

Be happy yourself before sharing happiness

And always seek for something new

Something super duper exciting and all you

Need do

Is

Love

Your

Self 💕

"STEP OUT OF THE FAKE WORLD!"

"STEP OUT OF THE FAKE WORLD!"

It's okay to be flawed, it's okay to be less privileged, it's okay to be poor, it's okay to be 'not so pretty' , it's okay to be fat, it's okay to be dark, it's okay to be short heightened, it's okay to be underweight, it's okay to be jobless, it's okay to be the one with a 2 GPA, it's okay to be living a NOT SO PERFECT LIFE!

It really is.

We've all made perfection a standard to survive in our society. Therefore, all we do in life is just chasing these unreal standards and die!

Whereas, actual life is far more meaningful and purposeful than that.

Just when we get this!

Think about it.

The world with you seems calmer

The world with you seems calmer, as if there is nothing to worry about. Your laughter is like oxygen that spreads in the air, inhaled in lungs giving them life, giving them the necessity of life. Your hugs pluck the thorns out of another, and you let them hurt you but oh aren't you such a beautiful soul to care and love others more and to be there when they fall apart. Through your soul people seek for positivity and love as it flows in your blood and makes you this amazing human being who is strong, beautiful and undefeated. You have fire in your eyes, the determination never ends, the fight to reach the height never ends. Your heart is a flower, so beautiful but easily damaged, you are so lost in giving out to everyone that you permit everyone to hold your heart, and when they mistreat it, it hurts you, but you manage to fixate it back where it belongs, you let the light enter the holes of your heart, filling it and then you continue. Then you continue to reach out to the world, to give it more than you have ever received, to love it more than any love you have ever felt, to care for it more and be gentle with it no matter how much the world drives over you. Because my love, you are the best person alive, you make the earth worth living on, you make smiles more brighter, lives more beautiful. Oh love, the world without you would have been a chaotic place, thank you for being the calm waves of the ocean and teaching me such beautiful things

I had to write this to the girl not wearing her comfortable dress

*I had to write this to the girl not wearing her comfortable dress today fixing her self in that expensive outfit feeling uncomfortable in that whole lot of Make up, and to the boy who wanted to go to arts but now is struggling in an engineering college, and to the mum forcefully asking her daughter to fake smiles and to the dad who shifted his family to an upper class residential area where he knows no one Lekin logo ko nazar aana chahiye k hum high class hai is zyada important; and to whoever it may concern.*

“THE CONSTANT PRESSURE TO PLEASE PEOPLE.”

What happens when you carry a heavy load over your back?

You bend down. Right?

Similarly when you carry the burden of a constant urge to please people, when you are carrying the luggage of their opinions, and approvals; you bend down. Your self respect gets shattered and you bow down to the need of constantly making people satisfied from you.

And the noticed yet pretended to be un-noticed fact is: THEY NEVER GET SATISFIED.

You could go to the moon for them and they’ll still have the audacity to say that I never asked you tho!

We crave for appreciations and approvals, but for how long? You do a 100 good things to win that badge and then one day you fail to satisfy them and boom all your good gets wiped out.

Now the more funnier fact is, the people you are constantly trying to prove yourself and show-off are mostly those who hold the least important place in your life, you don’t really like them, yet you keep on carrying the burden to seek their attention and approval.

Now coming to the point straight,

REMOVE THIS SAC OF BURDEN FROM YOUR SHOULDERS. I WANT YOU TO STAND STRAIGHT. AND SAY ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM, OR GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR OPINIONS.

I read in a book I am currently reading, their would always be people who would appreciate you for who you are and their would also always be a whole allot more of people who would laugh at you!

And that’s okay.

You can’t satisfy everyone and you certainly don’t need to.

The last thing the world wants is another robotic indifferent soul.

And then opinions are dynamic, they keep changing. Do not get stuck to them.

All that matters is, YOU SHOULD BE SATISFIED FROM YOURSELF.

Ps: their would always be some people you find at some stage of life that would love you the way you are. And make you feel really special. That’s your tribe. Hold them. And even if you haven’t found them, you are your own superhero, love yourself. But more than that accept yourself so that you don’t have to run behind meaningless acceptances.💛

My mother has always told me

My mother has always told me

"if someone has hurt you,

forgive them.

if they hurt you again,

forgive yourself."

you miss a lot of things

you miss a lot of things

but you’re not so sure

if

they miss you

just the same

where do you go from here

when the arms

that held you

so tightly

on the happiest

and the worst

of nights

are now crossed

or

lying straight

on both sides

of a body that is

indifferent

to your longing

where do you go from here

So i was watching the growth of different plants

So i was watching the growth of different plants in my back yard and i could see them bloom and grow in different sizes in different times while apparently they have been together all along getting all the water soil and sun all together and maybe that is something that can clear us on our growth as youth

We all have different capacities,circumstances and privileges that makes us grow in different ways at different times. Sometimes we grow all up in a minute and sometimes it takes the whole lifetime and sometimes our growth is nothing as compared to our surroundings despite of everything we did

This is where we need to draw the line and notice the difference. We think growth is relative and sometimes when your growth doesn’t match the outside world you start feeling like you’re left behind.

We all grow just differently in our own ways and we shouldn’t measure anyone’s growth by our metrics. No one has it all ever and i believe that we all get it one way or another just differently.

To all the introverts out there....

To all the introverts out there....

If you don't like to socialize, it doesn't mean you will never have a life.Sitting in silence, on your fluffy sofa, reading a good book isn't that bad either.

You are a good listener. It's okay if you don't talk too much, but when you do you are so passionate about it

Do not think you can not be a good friend to someone just because you hate hangovers and clubs. Nowadays people need a genuine one who can listen to their pains and can understand their silence.

You may sometimes feel like no one loves you, but that's not the reality. There are people who adores you for the way you are and believe me, they will never turn their back on you

You get confused during long talks, hesitate while speaking in front of a huge crowd, but don't you know how good you are in expressing your feelings through your writings.

It's okay if you fear opening up to people, sometimes privacy is just too satisfying.

You like spending time with yourself, doing self talk, building peace with your innerself. Don't you think it's much more important than everything else. Remember, everyone is unique and different, and so are you

The Last Love..!!

He was 12 years old,when he wished to be an officer,whenever he saw an scrupulous and strict officer surrounded with people ,he also desired to be the same.Whenever he listened the stories of a brave and flightless officer in the language of oppressed people,he observed that living for people is life indeed.He decided to be a hero of public and public his strength.

That public which is considered ordinary.

That public which is considered powerless.

He knew that founder of Pakistan Quaid-e-Azam Muhammad Ali Jinnah was a lawyer by profession,he knew that man of Asia,Zulfiqar Ali Bhutto was a lawyer too but he came accidental in that profession and then made it faith.Two were the aims he set for,first to serve the people,second to provide justice as much as he could.

He started studying law and now he knew that advocacy is the only profession by which he could live in the hearts of people.He was an extraordinary student of his batch,lived most seriously.When he used to speak,silence started spreading it's wings in the class and his voice prceded like thunder,roaring with the walls.The words were his slave and he ruled over objections.He was a little emotional too,mostly argued lengthy on small things.At the age where boys get tremble through the gravity of environment,he was addicted to books madly and was a true lover of knowledge.Ever found in library or used to fall asleep with books while reading them.

The time flowed on it's way and he kept working eagerly,he tried to save himself from unnecessary wants,finally he became a lawyer.He used to argue so fastly in the court that sometimes it became difficult to catch his words.He made his opponents unanswered through his vast knowledge and attacking attitude of reasoning,he got so much fame at very short time.

It was the time when advocacy was considered like a trade and business of money but he changed the revailing thoughts by his sincerity towards his profession.He was tempted by money and offered for bribe but he refused with uttering these words'I am beloved of people and people are my strength,if you offer me whole of the world I can't compromise on the things which purely are for the benefit of people'.He fought thousand of cases in his life and became successful in defending them.Now he is old but still is the ideal of people and will remain forever!

" It doesn't mean to be a lawyer,practicing law is everything "

Dear Indian best friend

Fate played a cruel game to give me & you everything in life. All pieces of the puzzle that fit perfectly, except one. It made you an opposite to me yet exactly like me. We understand each other like no one does. It gave me this last piece, but it never fits.

It made you an extreme introvert, and me otherwise, always talking when you're so quiet.

It made you a Hindu, and me a Christian.

Life was beautifully cruel as it made you an Engineering student and me a doctor.

You are a technology geek, I, an old soul poet.

You keep travelling here and there & I never leave home.

You stay on your laptop and I am always lost between the pages of books.

It made you rational & logical,

and me a dreamer and believer of magic.

And lastly, to always remind us of our differences, it made you Indian.

And me a Pakistani.

Because yeah, if our personalities weren't a shocking contrast, our nationalities definitely are.

And to make it even more painful, it put you & I just across the border.

So you'll always be close and always be so far away.

Oh but you were always a rebel, and so was I.

And I guess life forgot one thing. That people that are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back to you.

If fate played a cruel game, we fired back with something even better. Because even after all the hate there is, even after all the hard times we had, we are still the best of friends. We turned the tragic game into something cruelly beautiful. And today, each year, it marks our win.

Because what they labelled as enemy ground,

the best ally is what there i found

what they called as common foes,

a friend for highs, a friend for lows

where they found hate, we found peace

where they rage war, we would cease

where the borders converge,

and the sun moon collide

where the mountains submerge,

and the sub-continents divide

here we are

two best friends

one from where the other world begins

the other from where this one ends

Here's to 4 years of undying friendship and counting.

Happy International Best Friend's Day.

Love,

Your Pakistani counter-part