The truth is, no matter how hard you try

The truth is, no matter how hard you try, there are going to be days that leave you feeling absolutely rubbish. You will feel lost, worthless, sad, down, powerless and even tired of living. There will be times when all you want to do is hide from the world and run away from all the responsibilities, all the tasks you have yet to complete. Once in a while you will question why you were even born. Yes, days like these will happen, no matter how much you try to fill your life with positivity and good things. Life is not always going to be sunshine and pretty flowers, smiles and a heart full of love. And that is truly okay, for that is only human. You will be alright again. Until then, please be gentle with yourself. Stop being so damn hard on yourself and take all the time you need to mend your heart.

Not everything works out the first time.

Not everything works out the first time. That’s okay. Growth means attempting new challenges, many of which we will fall short of. We can see it as failing, or we can see it as practice. We can retreat into ourselves, or we can take what we’ve learned and move forward. Failure or practice. It all comes down to how you look at things. Your mindset is your destiny. It’s all up to you.

You’re going to have moments

You’re going to have moments where you break down over things you thought you had moved past. This doesn’t mean you’re not progressing in your healing. If anything, these moments of feeling, which you might have previously blocked or avoided, are proof that you are progressing through this.

The soul is tired,eyes are blocked,

The soul is tired,eyes are blocked,ears are ceased,legs are broken,the entire body is choked up,heart is sinking but still it is pounding, may be there's a hope out ov all bleakness but WHY?

U could get it urself,from urself,for urself!

U may wonder bleakly with eyes of a dark universe wherein the hope is inside a dark room like a jet black dot in a fully blackish corner full o' blackness! Again the question is WHY?

Ur soul urges u to find that answer coz u're wondering. Sometime at someplace u get that damn HOPE. U ponder every time either u nod off or u're sleeping with ur eyes OPEN! U're dead intrinsically or extrinsically although u get that crap, I'm sure enough u got that CRAP! Isn't u? For sure am talkin' about HOPE (u might laugh!). Ultimately,u got it but after frequent wander with apparent dead. Again there's a question from where u got it? From WHOM u got it?

He's HIM! The absolute HIM! Who fills u with great white hope and certainty to bright ur soul to glow fully!

Man up being!I'm here with you in u!Keep that faith in!🌼

^^If ur hope is in ALLAH then it's not a crap even so it's a thing with feathers!➿

- What’s the most thing you’re afraid of?

- What’s the most thing you’re afraid of?

Being forgotten.

- Can you explain how?

It’s like you turn off your phone for a week,

And when you open it,

You find zero messages and zero calls.

It’s when you’re in an outing with some people who are considered your friends,

Yet if you just leave, no one will notice.

No one notices your disappearance.

No one cares about where you are or what you’re doing.

You’re not important.

You’re the last choice.

They forget to tell you everything.

There are people who have been forgotten for a long time.

I pray for you all to have only someone who always remembers you.

Among other things,

“Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”

Emotions an abstract reality of self :

Emotions an abstract reality of self :

Emotion is but manifestation of true personality .. Emotions evolution is based on feelings .. feelings compete with each other ( like virtue competing against vice , hope vs despair ) within to give us a certain emotion ..

These feelings subtly and gradually influences the thought process in a way that nourishes evil or virtue depending on what one is feeding ones spirit with .. in other words , these insignificant innate feelings paves way for the personality ..

This competition between negative and positive feelings is conscious in the first phase , and becomes unconscious automatic responses with passage of time .. the good innate disposition succumbs to vice if one feeds on vile .. The gauge to know from which feeling one is influenced how much is then emotion .. for example : if one feels guilty for cheating while other rejoice in doing so , shows how the emotion one feels tells about his/her personality .. Thus , emotions highlight the abstract reality of self , signifying where one stands by emotions one experience in presence of certain stimuli ..

I do want to isolate myself from the world for a while

I do want to isolate myself from the world for a while , but i don't want to hide myself in the room and be cornered with my fears , i do want to walk in a crowd full of actual strangers and just observe and not judge them , and by actual strangers i mean people who've ive never met and not those who catted their ties with me or i did with them , i want simplicity in the solitude not complexity in a society , i want to see what everyone sees without any kind of comparison not where you relate and debate.

I want to sit alone with a camp fire at least that will keep me warm if not a person , and i want to travel across distances not people's lives for once.

I want to live as who i am and not as how people expect me to.

I do want to live as "me" for once.

"Who are you?"

You wrote something in exam, read it again, felt like it was perfectly fine and came back home. The next day when you read the same answer, you saw a bunch of silly mistakes and wondered what was wrong with you? Sounds familiar?

That's how your mind plays with you. It tricks you into reading something which is in your mind, not what you write. It tricks you into seeing something which wasn't in your answer, but in your thoughts.

Now analyze your character, what do you see? An imperfect person yet ' somehow better than most of the people '? That again is your mind. Its tricking you into seeing some imaginary character which is in your mind, not you. A character which is righteous, ethical and spiritually above average humans, and a character which is ' at least better from heart ' .

The point is that our mind plays with us in such a subtle way that even we don't realize how evil, cocky, and sometimes toxic we are just because we ' don't have it in our heart ' . Believe me nobody is evil from the inside, nobody wants to be toxic, judge or mean.

So who is your true self? The imaginary character which lives in your soul or the one which is being portrayed by your actions, words and personality? Obviously the second one. Nobody else knows the inner self of yours, and there's no point in knowing that until it's being reflected by your outer character. So next time don't try to convince yourself by saying that ' at least I don't have anything in my heart ' because nobody does. The reason why someone is toxic is because they show it, not because they have it in their hearts. Next time analyze yourself according to what your outer personality is. You are what you show, not what you think you are.

Keep that in your prayers, always!

One of my biggest fears is getting attached to something that is not destined to be mine.

A job, a person, a place, or a dream..

اللهم لا تعلق قلبي بما ليس لي

Keep that in your prayers, always!