Your trauma does'nt allow you to be bitch to ur frnds.

"Your trauma does'nt allow you to be bitch to ur frnds."

No matter how much we try to avoid any kinda conflict, no matter how much we pretend to be okay, things ain't gonna work out like this. Sometimes we are just devastated. infested. Deep inside just dim. They expect from us, to crack them up with the same kinda jokes, Forgeting about the fact that some sort of shit has happened with

us...

Yess we could'nt make you laugh anymore. could'nt show sparkle when we talked once in a while. But we will...Just give us some time yarrr. A little time may be. inshAllah we will...

 Have'nt u noticed hw we try to keep pulling us, on the same old track But something is holding us back. How we pretend to be the happiest person alive but having miserable life the next moment is killing us.

Laughing, Fighting, accusing, denying, will do everything . Cant imagine a world with u gone. Hold on yarrr. Just hold on.

Self Realization :- Few years ago,I've witnessed death of a closed one.Since

Self Realization :-

Few years ago,I've witnessed death of a closed one.Since then,I connected myself spiritually to Allah.I was the one who'd loved listening to loud music all the time and going to college concert with friends years ago.Few days back while I was there in foodfestival, I saw people around me going Crazy in the concert crowd,dancing on those beats,I felt how shaky our emaan is.I just wanted to run from there.I was worried about my namaz.I want you all to look within yourself.Self Realization is the first step.Imgine young people keep on missing Namaz and stay there till midnight enjoying food n concert in these food festivals what if anyone dies there, how shameful it would be to be presented to God when his last moments were not the moments of saying kalma or shadah but his tongue was uttering those useless lyrics. How grave will welcome us if we die in such condition. Have you ever imagined? What would Allah thinks that the person has forgotten me and he has gone mad over the temporary world which he'll leave one day.Be a learner and say Istighfar for all those small sin.

Whoever goes there for food festival will be attracted towards that concert.You might say that this is just few hours of enjoyment and that's it.But for me these things are beyond our thinking. I know the plots of shaitan; with the passage of time everyone can now attend such concerts and there's always a huge crowd..Remember the greater fitnah comes after the smaller ones. Imagine how horrible our future would be if we kept ignoring small sins.

There's always a war withinn myself too.Its very difficult to keep our faith firm when social media limelight and the judgemental people opinion around makes the emaan shaky.We should try to take small steps towards Allah and set our priorities clear.

this is what it's like. each of us is alone with thoughts, fears and anxieties in a room

this is what it's like. each of us is alone with thoughts, fears and anxieties in a room. trying to understand the individual apocalypse happening in someone's heart is trying to see all of them through the keyhole, because people adapt to hardship differently, they process emotions differently. even if they open the door and let you in, even if they share their white whale of fears with you, rip their flesh open and let you see the claws of their minds and eclipse of their hearts or manage to articulate the view from their abyss, you will still be looking through the fucking keyhole, because what you see of people is only fragments, tiny curated universes of them filtered through your own experience. All what one can do is listen, really listen to their howls, and maybe, sometimes, howl too.

TAHAJJUD: An Obsession

TAHAJJUD: An Obsession

(Stage one..)

I started praying Tahajjud because I had heard a number of times that "Tahajjud mein mangi gai duaaen kabhi rad nahi hoti". As the time passed, the belief got stronger. But the one unsettling thing was that I couldn't remain consistent. I kept on missing Tahajjud prayer; like, praying for 3/4 days continually then missing it on the 4th/5th day and with that 'for a whole week', unfortunately….! More plainly, I prayed tahajjud whenever I wanted to ask something (some "THING") from Allah ta'ala. 

(Stage two…)

But soon, I came to apprehend that this is not a prayer only to make Duaas and asking Allah to fulfil your dreams. In fact, it stabilizes your mental health. It provides tranquility to your soul when your body is in constant chaos. It's a medication for all emotional aches and psychological pains. It recovers and revitalizes you gradually, bit by bit, day after day. I came to realize that "Tahajjud is actually a Cure". 

(Stage three….) 

Then It became a regular practice… a habit. I began to remain calm, serene and levelheaded. Tahajjud became my need. I liked "the new stormless me". I really needed to pray at midnight to keep things go in the same manner. I wanted that peacefulness and serenity to last forever. 

(Stage four…...)

And then started a new chapter. The most beautiful chapter. The ongoing Chapter. The phase that everyone must go through. Tahajjud became an obsession for me … a Mania ❤️( Meeting Him regularly, without a deviation or miss). The point where I have begun to pray not only to fill the bucket of my soul with contentment, but also to make my Lord Happy. The stage when I want to be recognized by Him. The time when those lines from "Alif" have started making sense to me. Here, I don't miss Tahajjud because I fear "k Allah Ta'ala kahin naraz na hojayen". Now I ask Him from Him.  This has now become a journey… A journey from "Ya Allah" to "Meray Pyare Allah", a journey from "I started praying Tahajjud because.." to "I stopped missing Tahajjud because.." . 

I don't know at what stage you are. Or maybe you haven't initiated this journey yet. But believe me, It's a lifetime contract with Allah to get strength and gratification in return of your short time from 24hrs. It's a one on one meeting in a quiet atmosphere to resolve all issues going in your life. It's a pavement to walk toward a destination where He meets you. 

May we all become real Muhibs (devotees) of Allah. May we all learn to feel His love for us and turn towards sabr and shukr in all affairs.

Barak Allah Fik, Assalamualaikum wa rehmatullah.

بالسم پھول کو اردگرد کا کوئ بھی پودا چھوجاۓ تو اس ھمالیائی بالسم کا کونپل پھٹ کر ارد گرد پھیل جاتا ہے

بالسم پھول کو اردگرد کا کوئ بھی پودا چھوجاۓ تو اس ھمالیائی بالسم کا کونپل پھٹ کر ارد گرد پھیل جاتا ہے اور یہ ارد گرد کے تمام پودوں پر اپنا راج کرلیتا ہے ، پھر جگہ جگہ یہی پھول اگتا دکھائی دیتا ہے 

کچھ لوگ بالکل ایسے ہی ھوتے ہیں ،

کسی کے بھی قریب آنے پر بالسم کی مانند انتہائی خطرناک انداز میں اپنا سحر پھیلانا شروع کردیتے ہیں 

ارد گرد کے تمام لوگ انکے دیوانے ھوۓ جاتے ہیں 

انہیں بہت ہی سرکش انداز میں دلوں میں جگہ بنانا آتا ہے 

شاید میرا شمار بھی ایسے لوگوں میں ھوتا ہے 🤎

میں بھی بہت جلد دلوں پہ سحر طاری کر جاتی ھوں !

مگر جسطرح بالسم کے بہت سے مداح ہیں ، 

ویسے ہی بہت سے لوگ اس پھول سے بیزار بھی دکھائ دیتے ہیں ،

وہ چاھتے ہیں کہ انکے ہاں اس پودے کے علاوہ مزید پودوں کا بھی راج ھو اسلیے اکثر ممالک میں اس پودے کو انتہائی بیدردی سے جڑ سے اکھاڑدیا جاتا ہے 🖤

شاید میں بھی ایسی ھوں ،

جتنی تیزی سے اثر کرجاتی ھوں ،

اتنی ہی تیزی سے اکھاڑدی جاتی ھوں 

دلوں سے ،

محفلوں سے ،

باتوں سے ۔

کبھی تم نے دیکھا ہے کسی کو کہ جس کی آنکھ لگنے سے قبل ہی

کبھی تم نے دیکھا ہے کسی کو کہ جس کی آنکھ لگنے سے قبل ہی اس کی نیند ٹوٹ جائے یا خواب بُننے سے پیشتر اس کا خواب۔

اپنے تعلقات کچھ بُرا کیے بغیر امن و آشتی کے ساتھ ختم کرو،

اپنے تعلقات کچھ بُرا کیے بغیر امن و آشتی کے ساتھ ختم کرو،

ان دنوں کا احترام کرو...

جب تمھاری شامیں ایک ساتھ گزرتی تھیں،

پھر ان شاموں کی خوب صورت یادوں کا 

لحاظ بھی رکھو، اخیر تک نرم اور صلح جو بنو!

میں نے یہ دیکھا ہے " غلطیاں " دوستی کو کبھی ختم نہیں کرتی لیکن

میں نے یہ دیکھا ہے  " غلطیاں " دوستی کو کبھی ختم نہیں کرتی لیکن 

یہ unlimited کو limited  ضرور کردیتی ہیں!💜

دوستــــی کا اہم ترین اصول بس یہی ہے جب کچھ لگے تو پوچھ لیتے ہیں

دوستــــی کا اہم ترین اصول بس یہی ہے 

جب کچھ لگے تو پوچھ لیتے ہیں …

خود سے assume نہیں کرلیتے!

اور جب کچھ دل میں ہو، تو وہ بھی کہہ دیتے ہیں

کســی اور سے نہیں _ دوستــــ سے ہی ! ⁦♡

جب تعلقات اچھے رہے ہوں تو انکے خراب ہونے پہ خاموشی اختیار کر لینی چاہیے ،

اور جب تعلقات اچھے رہے ہوں تو انکے خراب ہونے پہ خاموشی اختیار کر لینی چاہیے ،

کیونکہ ذاتی حملے کم ظرفی ہوا کرتے ہیں!