Throughout my life,

Throughout my life,

I’ve ran into people who made me question my self-worth.

I was rarely told that I was “enough”.

I always had the feeling that I needed to run faster,

Look better,

Act smarter,

Work harder,

Just to feel that I’m a satisfactory product to all the ones I love.

When someone praised me,

I questioned the integrity of their words,

Because they were unfamiliar to me.

And when you live a life like that,

You end up never really knowing,

If you’re ever going to feel like you’ve got what it takes to be loved,

And to, finally, be “enough”.

Isn't it all beautiful to keep the curves with in you Hidden n all'?

Isn't it all beautiful to keep the curves with in you Hidden n all'?

You smile all the way long to mask up the short pain aches you keep in your heart? You think up that God chose you for all the chaos, But why?

Don't you feel lucky "allen?"

Don't you feel lucky to have those scars that make yoi even more powerful? Those scars that tell yoi everyday that you're a survivor, a survivor who put up a mask and fought with such a bravery?

-Okay, let's talk about your way of happiness and the type of life you praise and you wanted!

No worries, no pain, no heartache, all beautiful colours, love and affection from every person you meet or wants to meet, beautiful chill and calm life no struggles and no single worry ans clear happy smooth life? Well, okay.

Now seee and compare.

No pain means no gain, No worry means no experience, no heartache means no strength, you want love from every person then what do you think of hate? Would you know the concept of hate? No.

okay, You want calm life clear life and smooth life, right? Well okay, If you get all the right and positive things in your life what you want Then what about the Balance nature has put in this world?

Balance of positivities and negativities,balance struggles and outcommings, balance of love and hatered, balance about what you want and what is better for you, balance of good and bad, balance of the best amd worstttt.

Honey, these balances are kept by nature by The Almighty. We have no rights to undo anythings.

I always think that when you get out of a bad time and a bad situation you feel more power in yourself and its the power that every survivor feels after a ver very long depression. Yes you're a survivor yoi had a bad time and you dealt with that. You never quit you never give up Thats yours strength thats your outcome that's your real face and the one the scars made you.

At last you can say, my scars are my power my strength to deal with even more bad time. I can fight, i can deal, i cam conquer But i can never quit. Yezss

This is me!

I learned in time that trust was never about who lied

I learned in time that trust was never about who lied to you and who told you the truth. trust was a phenomena that was only accessed when you were soaked in everything that you hide, naked in everything that you are. your anxiety, your irrational fears, your depression, the days where you admit that you imagine even your shadow does not want anything to do with you anymore. trust is when they see you. really see you. they see the broken glass in your mouth, how often you are hit by the revolving door. they see you ashamed and shriveled; when you are a corpse in your own bed and they still love you. they still reach for your fingers. they still wake up next to you every morning. That is trust.

To have life just like we want it to be is really a life long struggle

To have life just like we want it to be is really a life long struggle because our desires are life long. I don’t even think it’s just the desires, it’s the fact that we want to keep on moving in life (not always forward). And to move we desire a change. A change that we think is better for us even though half of the times it’s not. Desires really are a life long deal. Choose yours wisely!

I CARE. I wonder people who leave do they think about the rubble they leave behind, do they ever look back , do they feel remorse , do they regret breaking others , do they even feel ? If they do , how can they just leave, I couldn't stop thinking about a stray cat back at home when I moved to college , how can people just leave and not care ? Not caring is the new trend, but I don't care much for the new phenomenon of not caring , I care , I care a lot , care a little too much about everything. Especially about those who leave. I wish them a heart that cares about others and about themselves , I wish they find the courage to stay , I wish they manage to find a home , I wish them the strength to love and I wish they eventually find something worth sticking around for , I wish them a life away from grey clouds of doubt , I wish them a heart brave enough to care .

یہ تو کچھ دنوں کی بات ہے۔۔

یہ تو کچھ دنوں کی بات ہے۔۔

ابھی تو لمحے باقی ہیں۔

ابھی تو جینا باقی ہے۔

ابھی تو ہنسنا باقی ہے۔

کچھ کچھ رونا باقی ہے۔

مل کے بیٹھنا باقی ہے۔

مل کے جینا باقی ہے۔

ابھی تو کچھ ہی دن گزرے ہیں۔

بہت کچھ ہونا باقی ہے۔

ابھی تو لڑنا باقی ہے۔

ابھی تو منانا باقی ہے۔

جینا مرنا باقی ہے۔

یہ تو کچھ دنوں کی بات ہے۔۔

جب ہم بچھڑ بائیں گے۔

دور دور چلے جائیں گے۔

تب تم کو یاد آئیں گے۔۔

کبھی کبھار مل پائیں گے۔

یہ تو کچھ دنوں کی بات ہے۔۔

بہت کچھ ہونا باقی ہے۔

I know you're hurt, I know it's tough,

I know you're hurt, I know it's tough, I know you feel like stopping and bursting out, I know no other person around you understands what you're going through but please just pause and remind yourself that This shall too pass. Just take a deep breath, have faith in Allah, have strong belief that better days are near. Your Lord WOULDN'T forget like people do. He DOESN'T take your effort for granted but he knows everything and rewards you with the best you've ever thought of. He knows the pain rising in your heart. He knows you can tolerate this now. But Remember this "So far you've survived everything you thought you never would". He's making you gold. He's teaching you something through the tough phase of your life. Just learn that. For how will you and I feel the beauty of life without an essence of sadness?💕

۔۔زندگی میں کجھ رشتے ایسے ھوتے ہیں جن کی نہ تو زندگی میں گنجاٸش ھوتی ہے

۔۔زندگی میں کجھ رشتے ایسے ھوتے ہیں جن کی نہ تو زندگی میں گنجاٸش ھوتی ہے کوٸی نہ دل میں پھر بھی ہمیں انہیں ساتھ رکھنا پڑتا ہے ۔انکے ساتھ اپنا آپ گھسیٹنا پڑتا ہے جب تک سانسیں چلتی ھوں. ۔

دراصل رشتوں کی سب سے بد ترین شکل یہی ہوتی ہے.. جن کے ہوتے ہوئے ہماری زندگی میں خوشی نہیں آ سکتی.. اور جب وہ نہیں ہوتے تو خوشی اپنا معنی کھو چکی ہوتی ہے

اور تمہاری زندگی کی سب سے بڑی خواہش؟

اور تمہاری زندگی کی سب سے بڑی خواہش؟

’’یہ کہ میں ایک کتاب لکھوں، جس میں قرآن کی آیات کے رموز پہ غور کروں۔ لفظوں میں چھپی پہیلیوں کو سلجھاؤں۔ ان کے نئے نئے مطلب آشکار کروں۔ کہتا ہے نا قرآن کہ اس میں نشانیاں ہیں، مگر ان لوگوں کے لیے جو غوروفکر کرتے ہیں۔ میں بھی ان میں سے بننا چاہتی ہوں۔

وہ محویت سے، ہلکی سی مسکراہٹ کے ساتھ اسے سن رہا تھا۔

’پھر کب لکھو گی یہ کتاب؟

’’کبھی نہ کبھی ضرور لکھوں گی۔ مگر پتہ ہے، میں ایک بات جانتی ہوں کہ اگر دنیا کے سارے درخت قلمیں بن جائیں، اور تمام سمندر روشنائی بن جائیں، اور میں لکھنے بیٹھوں، اور مجھے اس سے دوگنا قلم اور روشنائی بھی دے دی جائے، تب بھی سارے قلم گھِس جائیں گے، ساری روشنائی ختم ہو جائے گی، مگر اللہ تعالیٰ کی باتیں ختم نہیں ہوں گی

میں اگر چاہوں تو

میں اگر چاہوں تو

اپنے سارے خوابوں کو

سانس لیتی سوچوں کو

پوٹلی میں بند کر کے

دور کسی دریا میں

شور مچاتی موجوں میں

ایک روز بہا آؤں

میں اگر چاہوں تو۔۔

میں اگر چاہوں تو

یادوں کے اس جھرمٹ میں

اک حسین یاد کو میں

زہن سے مٹا ڈالوں

ان کہی سی بات کو میں

یاد رکھ کر بھول جاؤں

میں اگر چاہوں تو۔۔

میں اگر چاہوں تو

جو وہ کہتے ہیں

جو وہ سمجھتے ہیں

ویسی ہی بن جاؤں

اپنا سکوں لٹا کر میں

خود کے لیے ہی میں

اجنبی ہو جاؤں

میں اگر چاہوں تو۔۔

لیکن کون ہے جانے

اور کس نے پوچھا

میں آخر کیا چاہوں۔۔۔